Hoping weight loss finds me a husband diary!!

[great things]

quick hi and

 

[kimmi1982]

Nothing to really report today! 3 shakes had 2 litres of water had, lemon drizzle cake baked for mothers day tea. Now sat here watching biggest loser us and wondering why stress physically inhibits weight loss?

Sat waiting for a call from mr lovely. He worked an early shift, was headig home for a nap then said he"d call to arrange meeting up. Guess he"s still sleepig but angry with myself to be sat here waiting. Before I would have taken myself off to the cinem- maybe I should!! Hate dating politics!

So might start some extreme grooming, get the tooth whitening mouth guard on! Ooo exciting times!! X

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm going to have a day of extreme grooming too, going to have to start practising my fake tanning. I don't want to turn up to my cousins wedding looking like an orange zebra Also my eyebrows need a good pluck too. Two weeks back at work and my skin is already taking on the spotty nhs grey look, caused by germs and lack of day light, so that needs sorting too. I'm sat here covered in the wonder cream Sudacrem, gets rid of red spots like magic even if I do look like I've got some kind of contagious disease lol.

 

[kimmi1982]

Oooo I love being tanned- have lost my Florida glow already :-( did try and keep it up with a buy of fake everyday but the chlorine from the hydropool quickly bleached my skin White again!! I use sally hansen leg make up when wearing a dress- it's kinda like a thin
Foundation/ tan but covers everything and I find a tan always makes u look thinner!!

Well the grooming Continues. . . Last night was spent removing my sideburns, and mootash, a shave of the legs and pits this morning and just ended my day with a bikini wax!! Ooo the fun!! Dam polycystic ovaries make me so dam hairy!!! Didn't use to care much when I was single but gotta with this dating thing!!

Mr lovely popped in this morning while on shift- brought his colleague along too who was bloody gorgeous!! Was a lovely way to start the day- I did indulge in a small sliver of lemon drizzle cake :-( dam it!!!

But life is good, I'm 13st 6 and even though I know I need to be 10/11 st it can wait. I'm happy, enjoying life and if I can be good 80-90% of the time and still
Lose 1 or 2 a week then that's brill!! Have Locked myself away for far too long- time to live life like a 29 year old should!!

Xxx

 

[Surfhunny]

It's fab to see you so positive!! Two hotties in one go, lucky girl!! ( ha ha just realised how naughty that sounded )

I'm quite impressed with my first tanning attempt of the year, I've got a strange patch on the back of my left leg, not sure what I've done there lol. But they already look tons better with a bit of colour, just hope that the swelling in my left leg will go down eventually.

I need to tackle the lady tash tomorrow, and I can't even blame PCOS for it, I blame my dark hair!! it's such a pain!!

I'm just settling down to watch Priscilla Queen of the Dessert!! I love that film, haven't seen it for years!

 

[kimmi1982]

Just hope this happiness lasts!! I have the worst period pains so led in bed with a hot water bottle on my tummy and crying at the sky living show about jade goody!! Why I chose to watch this I don't know!!

Surf I bet the tan looks amazing! What kind of dress do u have? I love a good wedding- haven't got any this year- just christenings!!

Back on plan tomorrow- hopefully!! X

 

[Surfhunny]

This is my dress, I've got it hanging on the wardrobe as a reminder to keep on going!

I do love weddings too, but I just wish I'd be going to my own wedding!! Starting to think it'll never happen anyway not going to put my downer in your diary! I'll just live vicariously through you lol.

Hope your period pains go away soon!!

 

[Surfhunny]

Oopsy might help if I put the pic on.

 

[kimmi1982]

I do understand how u feel- I have spent many months / years wondering if I'll ever get to that point in my life! I don't get too upset about the wedding thing but I can't
Imagine going through this life without having a baby! Having Severe pcos doesn't help the anxiety either! Not only do I have the challenge of finding a decent man but the potential challenge of getting pregnant! Just a hurdle I will climb when gave with it!

You will get married- and be absolutely stunning on your special day!! And that dress for the upcoming occasion is lovely! It looks tiny! You"ll get there, when's your next weigh in? Xx

 

[Surfhunny]

I'm the same about having a baby!! Most of the time I try not to think about it but my cousins 20 year old daughter has just found out she's pregnant, and now my other cousins wedding is looming, I'm dreading the whole "are you courting, when are you going to find a nice man?" onslaught!

Ah it'll happen at some point, just hope I'm not too old to really enjoy it if you know what I mean

My next WI is a week tomorrow, decided to WI every 2 weeks because I'm so easily influenced by the scales. I'm okay at the moment dietwise, I think it's cos I have a short term goal. The dress looks smaller than it is I think the belt has bunched the material up a bit, it's a 16 but on the small side.

 

[Surfhunny]

PS I'm laid in bed and all I can smell is the biscuity smell of fake tan I want digestive biscuits now lol.

 

[rosebug]

*waves*

Just wandered by your diary, hope you don't mind me commenting. I'm 29 with very severe PCOS too (no periods for about 8 years - until I lost most of my weight, the high point of which was much higher than it says on my ticker, that's just my start on this current diet) and have only dated 2 guys in my life. I just spent so much time feeling too fat and insecure to go out, so I never met anyone. Even now I'm into a size 16 I still feel huge and to make it worse I'm now huge and saggy. I can't imagine anyone loving my personality enough to get past the state if my body. My bodyclock is really ticking. I always wanted to have started a family by the age of 28 and now I've had to raise that to 35 after which I'll just despair, I think.

Sorry to stop by and spill this everywhere but you guys really hit a nerve with me. I'll keep an eye on your diary, if that's okay.

 

[cornishkez]

Kim do you mind me asking whether you have normal periods etc? Docs etc reckon I'm mildly polysistic, but I'm regular like a clock. I dont seem to hold my weight around my abdoman, it's evenly spread and I'm not excessively hairy, I think it's more from being overweight and very dark haired/fair skinned.

Scott and I have been together 7 years and never used protection, so when we are ready for kids they will run all the fertility tests on both of us and start hormone treatment etc, but in the meantime I['m just left wondering.

Scott wont get tested until we are ready for kids, and I am tempted to get myself tested to see how fertile I am, but would feel like I was deceiving him and going behind his back.

It terrifies me that I wont be able to to ahve kids

 

[kimmi1982]

Nope my periods are very sporadic! Before the diet I hardly have any and since January I seem to be bleeding all the time! I'm having my implant removed this week and a new one put in so hopefully that will help. I have regular scans and appointments regaring my pcos. My left side is riddled with small ones that regularly burst (painful) and as a result have left scar tissue on the tubes. Last year I paid to have my eggs excised and frozen- having a family is very important!

Lots of desicions to make in the future but until I find a decent life partner I'm not worrying too much!! X

 

[cornishkez]

I think you're very wise to have your eggs frozen, there is no point in advances in science and technology and not making use of it.

 

[great things]

Are you taking anything for your pcos? I have it. The thinner I get the better my body copes with it all. I was put on metformin which helped the weight loss, then I found cd and lost enough to make my body work properly. Had Ems but put on loads and had shot up weight wise. I think it's because when I got pg i had to stop metformin! Then lost loads with cd again and got to goal fell with dude. Wasn't on metformin this time. I never started taking it again after Ems. Doc won't give it to me know cause I've had my kids! Cd works for sorting out your blood sugar levels and getting the weight off. You will get down to a fab size and you'll find your body will kick in on it's own.

 

[great things]

P.S I'm saggy too!

 

[kimmi1982]

Have had metformin in the past but got taken off it in November due to other problems! I definetly think the weight loss is helping tho! The fact that I'm bleeding is a great sign (pain in the ass)!

Went off plan yesterday- had a roast dinner with the mother but back to it today! Date with mr lovely to see alan carr tonight :-D xx

 

[Surfhunny]

Have fun at Alan Carr, I love him, so funny

 

[old_user45]

Yeah have a lovely time. We saw peter Kay last year, was so funny, almost wee'd at points!! Just booked Michael McIntyre tickets too, but a while to wait yet, not til Sept 2012!! Big comedy fan!

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