Oh (((Sue))).
You, lady, have way WAY too much to live for to be even thinking like this. Believe me when I say I know EXACTLY how and why you are thinking like this, I went through a much shorter period of exceptional worry over what eventually turned out to be a massive MASSIVE breast abscess, and I had all those thoughts, just like you are having, to the point where when I found out it was effectively nothing that a bit of surgery couldnt fix I couldnt actually take it in, I had already decided I had a matter of weeks to live, I was almost at peace with that outcome, and the real troublesome worry was what would happen to those I left behind. So I hear you, and I know WHY you are there, but those worries arent going to leave you until you know what you are dealing with. You are the most incredible, strong, remarkable woman, and you will face whatever you need to happen head on, with the support of all those that love you, but you NEED to know, and you need to know for two reasons, one, to stop this worry and give you the reality of the situation, and secondly, because whatever it is needs treatment!
I offer you the same as Hexe, if you need to come to the UK to sort this and want somewhere to stay, consider it done. We dont have a lot of space, but you could have our bed and we could sleep in with the girls on the airbed. If you dont get any joy with A&E, consider this an open offer.
I think what we all do need to bear in mind though, even though we are angry on her behalf, is that they are not doing this to personally cause Sue more problems, this is just a disastrous situation that she happens to be in. I am sure there are many more people just like her in her local region who are desperate to get the help they need, and the hospital is failing them all. We are right to be angry about that, but its important that we remember our role is to support Sue through this.