Jesus Christ the rain is not even funny here in London today
and the flu is taking over my office so now i have a cold
went out for dinner with the guy im seeing last night. went to pizza express and had a salad which had a bit of chicken, a bit of goats cheese and some olives and then a large amount of lettuce. had no dressing and obv none of the garlic bread things you get, just had my salad and you know what i loved it
every morsel and didnt feel guilty. defo feel my relationship with food is getting better. today i feel like crap and want a coffee but im like ya know what, i havent had caffeine in nearly a month and ive had more energy this past four weeks than in years. so i was like, right clearly no coffee is needed, drink some green tea. and three cups later, im still feeling pretty crap but im in good form. i find my cravings are very much a mental thing now, like i dont yearn for things anymore its like instead i imagine it, go hmmmm that would be nice and then go nah sod it. very pleased with my current mentality. have to admit i met a great guy the first week i started cambridge and he has been brilliant. worked all our dates around venues that didnt involve food or alcohol bless him. positive people have been the best help. out of my two groups of mates here, one have been brill but the others i love them but i mean im nearly a month on this and im still hearing "awh its a pity you cant drink we could have had a few in the house" etc. like im over it why cant they be? ughhhhh. to be honest this past month has been amazing on so many levels, ive lost weight, ive met a great guy, work is going good, friendships are good, my media career on the side (i have a degree in media) is taking off and just things are really good. its been a complete eye opening experience and i am truly happy. only thing peeving me off today is this STUPID cold. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
did ss on tuesday, and had a shake and soup before my salad yesterday. will do ss till monday now although might so ss+ tonight with this stupid cold. had a good water day on mon and tue, yesterday ish, today working on it. have kept up the walking. did over an hour tuesday and yesterday and got half an hour done (it lashed on the way back so had to get bus) today. gonna wait till cold dies down to tackle weights.
oooooooooooooh forgot to tell ye, costume came and fancy dress is this sat
ill be honest, you can really see the weightloss in it and i look very well. im chuffed! its moments like these that are far better than being drunk. so atleast on sat night if i get stick for not drinking (well not so much stick just a repeat reminder that im not!!! sigh
) well atleast ill be standing there looking unreal in a corset (im going as a sexy ladybird
) im sure thatll help take my mind off people annoying me.
ill be honest, being in the early stages of seeing someone is really helping on so many levels. one you have that new loved up feeling as ur getting to know someone so ur instantly happier! two its a boost to the self esteem to have someone tell you youre gorgeous! three the ahem regular exercise!
and four the fact that someone likes me just as i am before the slim me emerges! and i find that this time, im still sticking to my diet, before id be like oh well he likes me the way i am lets eat! now im like great that he likes me, but i wana do this for me! :girlpower:
anywho rant over lol I hope ye are all doing well.
Jan x