Daisy I can sympathise. I haven't lapsed or even been seriously tempted to, but the rest of the group have. Several didn't even stay for the meeting last night! Mind you, I wished I had left early too as I left the meeting absolutely furious.
We had a standin for our normal LLC. I was the only person in the room who had not lapsed - including the standin LLC who told us she may be joining us as she has been on and off the programme and finding it hard to stick to.
One of the things that keeps me from lapsing is that I know how much I would struggle to regain abstinence if I did lapse. I have at least another five months of abstinence so it really is important I stick to this 100%. I will deal with the issue of eating gradually and at the right time during RTM.
Well, the LLC told me that my reason for sticking to the programme was Crooked Thinking and it is a self-fulfilling prophecy!!!!!
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I was outraged. Given I was the ONLY person in the room sticking to the programme.
Agghhhh. I will be having a word with my normal LLC next week. I think I kind of understand what she was trying to say - but actually it was very inappropriate and made me feel that she wanted me to lapse with everyone else.
The ladies who came through from Foundation with me were incensed on my behalf. I guess I'm lucky in that there are five of us from my original group so the support is still there.