Well hello everyone - seems a little quite.
I am in a really good place mentally at the moment. A few comments have been made that would normally have me doubting myself so extremely. But I'm still feeling good. Really, I have just over a stone to go until I am in the healthy weight bracket, which is where I want to get to. After that its all vanity and confindence sake. I have been toying with the idea of possible going to LL Lite when I get to that point to get the last stone that I WANT off, not what I need. I know this sounds so strange ... but I kind of feel I would be okay going back to f**d even now. I'm not scared of it anymore, and I know that re-introducing is the hard part... but I feel like I won't be controlled by it anymore. I don't think I will control it either. I think I could live in harmony with it for most of the time! I have never felt like this on a diet.. I have always known I was doing things too soon, but I know that I wouldn't struggle if I went over to LL Lite, or even to do my own thing - which I NEVER thought I could.
This past 3 weeks has been tough emotionally, but I got through it, made some amazing realisations, and didn't turn to my old friend of binging once.
I feel empowered, like I could do anything because I know I am capable.
I'm not saying I am coming off the programme, I know this could all possibly go and I'll be insecure again in a few days (although, honestly, I know I won't..) so I am going to give LL until I reach the 10 1/2 mark. Once there I'll see where to go, it might be that that will be my time to naturally come off completely and go onto RTM, or like I said LL Lite.
Who knows?
All I know is I am feeling great.
PS...I would also like to point out that the best thing about re-reading what I just wrote, was that not once did I associate being at a goal weight, and looking a certain weight with being happy. I feel like I've grown up and realised they are very seperate things. And if I'm happy, I'm far more likely to succeed in the long run anyway.