Sorry to hear that, jaqys. I can see how that must make things really difficult for you. Is there any chance that you could get some kind of counselling to help you overcome, or at least lessen, the problem?
In any case, I hope that it works out okay for you and that you manage to get a bit of quiet time to yourself when you need to cook or eat.
It seems that a lot of us have some kind of issues when it comes to food and eating. It's good to be among people who understand.