Hi? Is anybody out there??
I come with my tail between my legs to beg for everyone's forgiveness. I know I came on here and said I was back but and you won't believe this the laptop I got repaired...broke. So I was back to just my phone for internet connection and long posts like this are just too much work on a mobile. So I do apologise I honestly did intend to be back but *touch wood* and fingers crossed I have had a new phone line connected after the cats chewed through it and I am now back on the desktop which is sooooo much easier.
Quick personal update myself and Darcy are doing brilliant, we're looking forward to Christmas and I have all my Christmas activities with her planned. I have 95% of my Christmas shopping done now you may be sat there with jaw open as you think this is good but trust me I am so far behind this year. I usually have mine bought and wrapped by now and cards bought and written out ready for distribution on December 1st so I really am struggling to get it all done. I know I have 5/6 weeks OMG see I don't even know how long lol...but I get really busy at Christmas as I have to do a load of Christmas events at work...being my first school Christmas I don't know what I'm going to have thrown at me from school for Darcy. I do all shopping, wrapping and baking for ALL my family which is why I like to get all mine done asap because my family do and have shopped right up to Christmas Eve before. What would they do without me? LoL. I decided to have a radical makeover so I went to the hairdressers had a cut and colour. Now this time last year my hair was touching the top of my trousers it now just barely touches my chin lol...I got some new glasses very Alan Carresque...Then I decided to have a pamper and got my eyebrows waxed and tinted, my lip waxed...my first time and OMG it hurt lol...so shoulders up I'm a new woman lol. I can't remember if I've mentioned this so apologies for repetition; Darcy has started dance class. She's been going for about 5/6 weeks now and seems to be loving it, I'm now trying to get her some swimming lessons and martial arts lessons...I don't want to be a pushy mum but my mum and dad never gave me these opportunities not cos they're mean but because we couldn't afford it so I want to make sure I give her the opportunities whether she sticks with them or not. I do have a pic so I will post that after this post.
Now I know you're all probably wondering about my marital situation so bear with me. At last report things were beyond bad and we went to mediation and it panned out exactly as I thought it would he spat his dummy out because he didn't get his own way. He thought the mediator was going to work as a magic genie and grant his wishes but he soon realised the ball was in my court and he wasn't going to get sweet FA without playing nice with me. The mediation was at 10am by 3pm that day he was begging to come see me at my house which hadn't been done since he left we'd always met at my Mums but I agreed and had my mum with me at my house and all went well etc, this continued for a few nights then he asked me if I'd consider getting back with him and he reeled off a list of conditions for him returning basically saying he'll do what he wants when he wants and **** me and **** Darcy so I said 'do one'. He came back the next day completely different and I'll admit sober...and he agreed to all my hypothetical terms and conditions...he asked that we 'date' for a week to see if we can be civil and to see if after that week if we both wanted the same thing...long story short...he came back home on Sunday but things are far from good and as of this morning I asked him to leave. He didn't turn up until 8pm on Sunday so he got to spend no time with Darcy and he basically came in and fell asleep, at the crack of dawn the next day he left to take his brother to court (he was arrested for domestic violence on his on/off girlfriend) he was gone for 6 hours, he then came home and promised Darcy he would take her to dance class and bailed on her 20 minutes before we left. Then yesterday he drove home 40 miles from work went to his Dads (of which he has an excuse to go to every day) and his brother was sobbing because his on/off girlfriend is in a women's refuge with nowhere to go (save your tissues she's a smack head who's had her kids taken off her) so he asked Phil to take him 40 miles back to where he'd just come from to go pick her up and until I completely freaked out he was going to do it. Then today he gave me his bank card to get a mini statement as he's having problems with his banking. He told me on Friday when he got paid that he only had enough in his bank for his car insurance and petrol for the next day, then he told me his dad loaned him money for petrol and made his money up for his car insurance by £30. The mini statement revealed today that he'd been lying to me there was nothing wrong with his account and he'd drawn all the money out over the weekend, when I questioned him about it he initially lied and said he hadn't I said I have physical proof that you've done it, he then said someone must have cloned his card (and didn't clear the account? Don't think so) and then after telling him to **** off back to Daddy's he said he had borrowed money off someone and had to pay them back and didn't tell me because he wanted to avoid an argument. Please don't think bad of me I'm not a gold digger I don't want his money but he knows I have nothing to my name and he's watched me struggle while he had his whole wage packet to piss away over the weekend how selfish is he? Sod ya child, sod putting food on the table...as long as he's got his cans to keep him company **** everyone else. Then before he came back and serves him right and I'm sooooooooooooo happy it happened...the numpty got pulled over and done for drink driving...I hope they make an example of him...I hope they take his license and give him a custodial sentence. He and his entire family deserve everything they get. So yeah there...as of this moment in time...I have asked him to leave the property.
SW update...I have been so bad for 3 weeks...and every Friday morning I keep saying that's it back on track. I don't know what's wrong with me...I think with combination of HIM and a stomach bug I had for 6 weeks that I just stopped caring. I don't know what to do to give myself that well needed kick up the jacksy. I still want to do SW I still want my 4.5st for Christmas but I just can't get my head in the game. So I have done damage limitation for this week but totally expecting a gain on Friday but I swear to you and to God and to Santa...lol...that I will be 100% back on plan from Friday morning and I am going to have a 100% week. I really need a good loss to kick start me...if that fails then group it is...lol
How are you all anyway??
