so been AWOL for a couple of days -
Went for weigh in on wed night because freaking a bit about dress - had put 3lb on - bearing in mind evening weigh in, star week and hen do, not upset or even bothered by it. But then got to thinking if I have put 3 pound on that'll come off after period so started thinking about dress again.
had a panic attack at 5am on thurs so ended up going back and having it taken in 4 inches which is good, it fits and looks loads better now, and I feel loads better
went shopping for holiday clothes with OH yesterday, ended up eating out, had coconut prawns with sweet chilli dip,
lamb, spring onion and ginger with fried rice,
belgian chocolate cake with cream
however, all clothes are size 14 so thats good, usually have to buy size 16-18, so happy days there
plan wise I need to be more organised and motivated. feeling achy and sluggish since not doing 30 day shred now, am worried in case body shape changes again and dress looks rubbish - its all very stressful.
I find it really difficult to stick to plan properly when I'm not at work. Like yesterday,
breakfast - none
lunch - 2 slices ww wholemeal bread (hexb) lettuce, cucumber, boiled egg, 1 laughing cow light triangle, 1 pack velvet crunch (4.5 syns)
dinner - meal out as above
snacks - hi fi bar (5.5 syns), star bar (13.5 syns)
not nearly enough water
how crap is that when I look back at it. Why did I do that to myself.
Ok so today at work -
breakfast - banana
lunch tin beans, 2 laughing cow lights, 2 slices ww wholemeal bread
berries and ff fromage frais,
dinner - lettuce. tomato, cucumber, coleslaw mix, 3 tbsp hellmans mayo light (6 syns), 2 crabsticks, velvet crunch (4.5 syns)
snacks - kit kat (5.5 syns), 2 satsumas, pear, apple,
which looks ok, might ditch the kit kat though to make syns better.
need to get my head right back in it and keep on track otherwise I'll soon end up back where I started and I don't want that.