kes doing the Cambridge diet: Again....

[rumbly-tums]

oh I know, I just feel I have to let you know so you know Im not giving up on the diet or giving up on my mini buddies xx

 

[Kes]

i dont think we would ever think that of you hun.. there are days where im not usually about!! there are days that im here allll the time.. lol

 

[Kes]

i had a complete meltdown tonight, and spent a good 2 hours balling my eyes out because i couldnt get something done in photoshop that i wanted... silly i know, as all i had to do is look up on google how to do it in CS5 and that would ahve been fine.
but no i had to brake down and cry... i now feel shatted, and still not much furthur into my photos that i need to edit, so therfore not any closer to being able to go to bed..

i want to know why im so why when ive been good, im happy about that, and i go and feel like this... i just thought it was because my boss was at home, but surely that cant set of hours of crying and sobbing.....
whats wrong with me...

ive got a busy couple of days so might not be on as much as i would like, but i will pop in when i can...

 

[Tessieg1]

atback: Aah, Kez, I'm so sorry to hear that you're upset. Sending you big hugs. I think it may be the diet that makes us more emotional. I used to turn to food for comfort, but now have to face my emotions instead. May be the same for you?
I'm on nightshift tonight, so here all night if you need to chat. xx

 

[Kes]

awww hun thanks. thats really sweet...

ive not been one that turns to food while upset... but maybe it does have something to do with it.. differnt things running through my body etc....

im feeling better.... and the photos are getting there slowly....

what do you work as?

 

[Tessieg1]

Hiya, glad you're feeling a bit better, hon. I work at a supervisor. We monitor alarms - fire alarms, intruder alarms, network alarms,etc... Quite boring tonight, to be honest, which is why I'm on minimins! We're not supposed to go on the net - it's against policy!!!

Oh well....
Chat soon.

 

[Kes]

lol
love it... we always find a way to make our way on here regardless of if we are allowed!!!!

good luck with the night shift...

 

[Tessieg1]

Hehe, indeed!
Thanks Hon. Hope you get to bed soon. x

 

[Kes]

yeah shouldnt be too long....... might just get as much done between now and half 1 maybe and then go to bed.

 

[rumbly-tums]

hey kes, im free - everyones in bed and im catching up on work.
You up?

Hi Tess....you lil sneakster!

 

[Kes]

yes im still here
lol
you should be in bed though!!

 

[rumbly-tums]

he heeeee - how comeyou are up?
shall we chat - I have skype.....its faster to type on there

 

[Kes]

dont have skype.
i have msn, or facebook

 

[rumbly-tums]

i have msn messenger, ill pm you my hotmail address

 

[Tessieg1]

Hi Rumbly, sorry just got message as I was a bit busy at work. Will catch up soon.

 

[Awaken Me]

Kes, just sending you ((hugs)) this morning - hope you're feeling brighter today xx

 

[Kes]

Kes, just sending you ((hugs)) this morning - hope you're feeling brighter today xx

thankyou...
you amaze me how you have stuck with it... i cant wait to see a proper before and after photo!!!


i am feeling better this morning... although i could eat the house down. SO HUNGRY!!! the kids pasta bolognese.. OH MY GOODNESS!!! i really could have a small bowl of that right now... with a sprinkling of normal chese (not the low fat stuff as it doesnt taste as nice.. lol)
but one can but dream...

im wondering if stepping up a plan will make me feel better.... but then i think once i start eating something thats it, im a gonner!! lol...

im dreading tomorrow!!!!! i am going to be doing my first aid cert... (again!!! i have to do it every 3 years) so its this sat and next sat... and i really dont know how im going to cope to be honest.......
im planning on having porridge (as close to leaving as possible) for breakfast, a strawb or chocolate tetra for lunch, and then maybe a bar in the afternoon... (hopfully there wont be too many breaks, as all i will think about is food!!!!!!

and then when i get home, have a soup or shake or soemthing.....
i dunno... ill decide when i get home...
if i can go without the bar in the day, then i can have it while watching x factor....

so hopfully i can do that.........
i had about 3 hours sleep last night, with working on some photos (wedding ones) that my client is coming to see tonight... i didnt think i had left them to the last min, until i thought, oh ive not proofed them. and omg they are coming on friday....

im too much of a fuss pot my hubby says... they will be happy with them, dont fuss anymore... come to bed etc....
lol

thank good ness i have monday off!!! the kids papi is here for the weekend while the parents go away (the first time on thier own since the kids were born..) so they will still be here on monday, so i dont have to work. WOOP WOOP!!
they should be arriving anytime this afternoon... so shall be an interesting afternoon, as they are French, and speak very little english... and i dont speak a word of French!! lol... OH BOY!!!!

 

[rumbly-tums]

how are you my ozzie beauty?
have you been 100%? Dont fret if you havent, its the bloody weekend after all
Hugs and loves x

 

[Goreygirl]

Hey Kes

Hope you are now able to resussitate Annie with ease Doesn't she wear fab clothes?! Talk about a fashion icon!

Hope it's been a good few days for you and you've managed to stick to your plan.

 

[Tessieg1]

Hey Kez, how's it going? Just thought I'd drop in and find out how you are. I'm at work at the mo (again!), but it's pretty boring at the mo.
Have a great day.