Dubchick81
Finally Pregnant!!
I'm just afraid it'll freak Jonathan out as he's going to Barcelona this evening.. And if he thinks i'm poorly he might panick with not being home...
Urgh I have the headache from hell this evening pregnancy hormones and grief (my dad died suddenly in May ) are really not a good combo and seem to be kicking my butt today. I spent most of my drive home sobbing and I'm not even sure what set me off! Just want to crawl into bed and feel sorry for myself instead ive got to be sociable with mikes friends for the evening feeling very sorry for myself tonight at least I get to eat out and it will hopefully be somewhere with yummy food
Sorry to hear about your Dad hun.. I know what its like losing a parent suddenly.. Altho my Mam passed almost 5years ago now its still as raw now as it was then.. 4 years 9months today actually... Grief just hits ya from nowhere.. Especially early on.. You let it out and don't hold it in.. Don't try to be brave coz its really not worth it.. I know!!!
Hope you're feeling a bit better at least now chic.. Chin up xxx
Most days i'm completely fine and can talk about her for hours.. Others just to think of her feels like it was only yesterday.. But then she always said the same to me about her Mam n it was 20 years later.. But you really should talk to someone about it rather than "ignoring it".. I know what i'm talking about.. believe me.. The thought of talking to a councillor about my loss made me feel a complete loser.. Like, people lose loved ones everyday n deal with it.. But I was falling apart inside and putting a fake smile.. I only needed to see the councillor twice n he gave great advice n tips on how to deal with the bad days.. Each to their own but that's my advice anyway.. N May is only a stone throw ago.. I was half mess, half numb that soon after my loss.. So don't be thinking you should be "over it" at all.. Its still very new.. You've lots of "firsts" to get thru xxxThanks Frances is good to know (in a strange way) that it doesn't really ever get past that raw stage as I keep beating myself up that I should have dealt with it enough for it not to be so raw. I think the only way I can deal with it and continue to function is to block out that it happened (good old denial) and then when I do allow myself to think about it it hits me like a brick wall. So thank you for the reassurance that it's kind of normal to still feel the rawness xx
Oh good luck hun.. Let us know how it goes..17 +3 weeks
I'm currently sitting outside the hospital an hour early for my consultant 16 week appointment. A colleague was going past the hospital on her way to another campus and offered me a lift as the route the bus goes has major roadworks and the traffic was bad. So I'm camped out on a bench. Fingers crossed the consultant is in a good mood today!
Food yesterday was bad bad bad! But today will be better! I feel much better than I did yesterday which is good whatever was going on yesterday drained me of all my energy!
Food today:
Breakfast: cornflakes and ss milk
Snack: hopefully a banana z and I'll resist the biscuits
Lunch: lf microwave meal of tomato and cheese pasta bake. Shape 0% yogurt.
Snack: I have another yogurt or a clementine to choose from.
Dinner: lf meatballs with tomato and chilli sauce with pasta.
I've got a sick hubby hes got a cold and shoe throat so I'm sure he'll be dying by the time I get home..... typical man flu symptoms !
Oh good luck hun.. Let us know how it goes..
Oh no for the man flu at home... Make sure you drop everything and tend to his every need.. You know how awful manflu is... lol
Haha from just the text messages I can tell it's going to be one of those evenings! He's feeling very sorry for himself *sigh*
Had my appointment was quite amuzing as I had a medical student who was very nervous do the initial checks. BP was ok (a little high for me but to be honest I think he guessed it more than actually heard it but I was nervous for him so that could account for the higher top number! ) I had glucose in my urine which isn't a great sign so going to try and cut down on sugar but have to have a gtt test at 28 weeks anyways as my sister is diabetic so she wasn't worried. She's increasing my thyroxine dose by quite a lot so hopefully might help me not feel so tired! Everything else was fine he had a feel of my tummy and listened to heartbeat which he found straight away! Was such a lovely sound
So all is ok back in a couple of weeks for my scan
Hope your appointment goes ok Jess mine was fine both student and consultant were lovely so relax and try to enjoy it xx