jadeelizabeth
becoming a happier, healthier me
Where have you gone? Hope everything is ok? x
I've had a bender of a weekend! Basically I ate crap all the way from Friday and that burger through to now... I have had an Indian takeaway and countless amounts of chocolate
I won't be weighing this week. I'm actually taking a week out from weighing I won't be touching the scales til next Friday as I really need to get my head in the game.
I've had a queer weekend... The Friday burger challenge and pictures was like a date for me and I haven't felt a connexion with anyone since my big split from my boyfriend of a year and a half back in November.
To cut a long story short, me and Thomas (my ex) can't let go of our feelings, although he has a new girlfriend who he jumped into a relationship with in January he still holds onto me, texting me whenever he is drunk bringing up old issues and feelings and sending me back to my old heartbroken slump. We can't let go of our feelings but he refuses to break up with his girlfriend to take the chance and I am afraid of it anyway. But this makes it hard for me to see anyone else other than a drunken kiss or a flirt!
I'm only 21 I don't think it's normal to feel this low but I do and instead of not eating at all like normal heartbroken people I eat EVERYTHING AND ANYTHING!
So I can guess at least a 5/6lb gain over this weekend. I need to sort my head out and work out wha I want! Maybe consider cutting off all communication with Tom altogether!
My date actually went well and he's a lovely, caring, considering lad. What it's rare to find! So I need to have a good hard think. I will document what I'm eating and have a chat with you guys but I won't be weighing! Thanks for caring bet I sound a sop! X
Sammy x Was 14st 3, now 13st 11 xoxoxox
Thanks girls! I wouldn't avoid minis altogether cos it's nice to have your support. I've had some banana and yoghurt this morning and I'm out on a walk with my dog it's a beautiful morning!
What makes things worse is I fainted in my kitchen yesterday. I've never fainted before in my life and the doctors couldn't link it to anything! But I was petrified regardless.
So I'm gonna just assume my body hasn't been at it's best lately. I think the idea of 10 days away from the scariness of the scales will help and I have a planned night out on Sunday for my friends 21at so I'm just gonna enjoy a little bit of vodka regardless of my weight! X
Sammy x Was 14st 3, now 13st 11 xoxoxox
Hey Hun, bless ya / the situation with your ex sounds really frustrating maybe you should really consider cutting all contact with him especially as he is seeing someone else and refuses to break up with her...
I'm the same with heartbreak don't/can't eat for the first week and then eat everything in sight out of comfort.
Hope your feeling a bit better after your date with the nice guy, you seeing him again? Xx
Anyone got snapchat on their smartphones? It's ideal for sending pics of food ha x
Sammy x Was 14st 3, now 13st 11 xoxoxox
No but will check it out!
How you feeling? xx
Tea:
x4 LM sausages.
Pack of chilli chicken low fat supernoodles.
Banana.
1/2 a bar of dairy milk (new type with jelly beans and popping candy... Was strange so hence only eating half! - 6.5)
Syns: 7.5/15
Sammy x Was 14st 3, now 13st 11 xoxoxox
That choc does sound strange, Haven't seen that one b4 - saw the Oreo one today tho on offer, took every bit of willpower I have not to put it in my basket.
How you doing today? X