I'm so emotionally drained, firstly I foolishly decided to do my own spin on a lifestyle day. So I've had two packs and.....I'm really embarrassed but might as well fess up and move on.. a chicken kebab tray without chips


I know, I know it's just a massive big cheat and I feel so stupid but strangely I think I'm still ketosis.
Not worth it whatsoever, and then my ex came down (with food and drink) and because of my cheat earlier I was all set to do it with a bang when he started telling me about his week.
How he was out here till 2 in the morning, in this friends house, that friends out (ten minutes walk away) and I just thought what am I DOING?!?? Sabotaging everything for an evening of this!! I texted him during the week very upset and at the end of my tether when my daughter was being difficult and I got a reply the next day saying hope she was better today.
No support whatsoever, yet he was in friends houses right beside us. Never even enquired about her all week.
Sorry for ranting but I need to get all this out so I can't forget about it when he makes a little tiny bit of effort. It's not even about him though, it's about me. I need to take these steps in moving on with my life seriously and losing weight is a major major factor in that. I need to keep my motivation whatever it takes, this is around the time I fell off the wagon on my last attempt so I have to power through!