Enough
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ok, so I'm STILL sitting here, but now I've had dinner (made soup for us so was able to disguise my soup and avoid conversation about my current diet). I'm not so stressed by the experience now. She has not minded me chatting with my laptop on my lap because I've been keeping up to date with risk of her flight cancelled for the morning.
Soo.. I've been free to read and think about my circumstances (health and diet-wise). I know I've been eating more than is healthy and eating things that are full of sugar and fat and have no nutritional value, and I've been doing that as an emotional response - when I'm stressed, tired, anxious, low, or simply feeling that I deserve a break/a treat.
I love being on the cambridge and I'm planning on completing the weight loss plan until I'm no longer over weight. BUT I've realised that DIETING can make things worse. The sense of deprivation during weight loss only reinforces the idea eating is somehow a forbidden sin, rather than something I will always be allowed to do for the rest of my life, and is healthy and normal, and a wonderful part of life.
I want to get to the point where I have a healthy balanced relationship with health, activity, self care, and nutrition. It's about balance and alleviating the extremes.. remembering that I eat healthy food for my long term wellbeing, and that being genuinely lovely towards myself is a great and welcome thing and can be in many wonderful ways like having fun, going to interesting places, having massages, using lovely hand creams.. and enjoying a healthy diet with occasional treats without being excessive.
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...............
How about we start afresh?
self soothing with enjoyable things
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence
choosing to self sooth with enjoyable things that happen to not be harmful
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence
choosing to self sooth with enjoyable things that happen to not be harmful
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence..........
it'll still involve deprivation in the short term to actively loose the weight, and I'm at risk of eating too much when I start eating again, so I need to start planning for it now.. this isn't about boom and bust.. this isn't about loosing the weight then going 'sod it' and putting it all back on again.. it's about learning a new way..
it's about discovering that I actually love feeling fit and healthy and active and full of life more than I love stuffing my face out of self comfort.. and actually... being more honest with myself about the fact that I don't really love stuffing my face out of self comfort - it's like an alcoholic, a drug addict, it's not taking the drug that'll make things better.. it's NOT taking the drug that'll make it better.. but it feels better in the shorter term.. actually.. get through the craving and life can be good with balance
Well.. the OH's mum has just gone to be so I'm now freeeee
Thank you for keeping me entertained
I'm going to have an early night with my OH and start practising all that healthy activity I've been talking about!!
Soo.. I've been free to read and think about my circumstances (health and diet-wise). I know I've been eating more than is healthy and eating things that are full of sugar and fat and have no nutritional value, and I've been doing that as an emotional response - when I'm stressed, tired, anxious, low, or simply feeling that I deserve a break/a treat.
I love being on the cambridge and I'm planning on completing the weight loss plan until I'm no longer over weight. BUT I've realised that DIETING can make things worse. The sense of deprivation during weight loss only reinforces the idea eating is somehow a forbidden sin, rather than something I will always be allowed to do for the rest of my life, and is healthy and normal, and a wonderful part of life.
I want to get to the point where I have a healthy balanced relationship with health, activity, self care, and nutrition. It's about balance and alleviating the extremes.. remembering that I eat healthy food for my long term wellbeing, and that being genuinely lovely towards myself is a great and welcome thing and can be in many wonderful ways like having fun, going to interesting places, having massages, using lovely hand creams.. and enjoying a healthy diet with occasional treats without being excessive.
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
excess leads to self criticism
self criticism leads to excess in order to self-sooth
soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo...............
How about we start afresh?
self soothing with enjoyable things
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence
choosing to self sooth with enjoyable things that happen to not be harmful
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence
choosing to self sooth with enjoyable things that happen to not be harmful
feeling good about myself
gaining confidence..........
it'll still involve deprivation in the short term to actively loose the weight, and I'm at risk of eating too much when I start eating again, so I need to start planning for it now.. this isn't about boom and bust.. this isn't about loosing the weight then going 'sod it' and putting it all back on again.. it's about learning a new way..
it's about discovering that I actually love feeling fit and healthy and active and full of life more than I love stuffing my face out of self comfort.. and actually... being more honest with myself about the fact that I don't really love stuffing my face out of self comfort - it's like an alcoholic, a drug addict, it's not taking the drug that'll make things better.. it's NOT taking the drug that'll make it better.. but it feels better in the shorter term.. actually.. get through the craving and life can be good with balance
Well.. the OH's mum has just gone to be so I'm now freeeee
Thank you for keeping me entertained
I'm going to have an early night with my OH and start practising all that healthy activity I've been talking about!!