Losing the battle

[Cas3]

Hey hun, how are you doing xx

 

[dd82]

Well I am back 5lb heavier I have serious binge eating issues and can't seem to stop I am now a stone heavier than my lowest weight and I literally have nothing that fits my work trousers are cutting in and I am still stuffing crap in my mouth I can't seem to put my finger on what triggered it all off again apart from my 30th birthday seems shallow I know but been thinking about everything and feel fat unhappy getting older worrying with oh wants someone else after ten years with serial dieter binge eater ahggggg that feels better all out

 

[dd82]

Today

Two toast with jam260

Morrisons chili bowl 350

Porridge 250

Snacks

Cake 220
Crisps 180
Yoghurt 100

 

[Cas3]

I had the chilli bowl last night for tea I added a jacket wiv mine.

Your oh is lucky to have you, half time I dont think even notice wot we look like! looks like ur back on track today and hopfully you've just gained water so it should come off quickly, when ur was birthday you kept that quiet x

 

[dd82]

Thanks hon , I know most of it is just imagined but I feel so unsure of myself at the moment, my birthday was July and I weighed about 9st 10 I weighed this morning and I was 10st 9 not good in 12 weeks , I know everything I am dojng wrong and just can't stop myself yesterday was really bad I ate all
My normal food plus two
Slices of cake a toffee apple a mini cupcake then I ate a
Massive cheese board felt like I was in the space o about 5hrs, I only used to do this when I was depressed and I feel fine and happyish not anywhere near depressed just can't stop the binging , today looks ok do far apart from I only have the porridge left to have on the list and it's only 3.30 lol xx sorry for the rant how are you getting on

 

[time2go]

Well I am back 5lb heavier I have serious binge eating issues and can't seem to stop I am now a stone heavier than my lowest weight and I literally have nothing that fits my work trousers are cutting in and I am still stuffing crap in my mouth I can't seem to put my finger on what triggered it all off again apart from my 30th birthday seems shallow I know but been thinking about everything and feel fat unhappy getting older worrying with oh wants someone else after ten years with serial dieter binge eater ahggggg that feels better all out

I could have written this! You can do it, keep motivated x

 

[dd82]

Nice to know that there are more of us going slightly bonkers out there, not ended the day great but no obscene either had done cheese and crackers a toffee apple (dam Halloween ) and half a glass of pear cider after a 12 he say at work x

 

[time2go]

Nice to know that there are more of us going slightly bonkers out there, not ended the day great but no obscene either had done cheese and crackers a toffee apple (dam Halloween ) and half a glass of pear cider after a 12 he say at work x

And I did actually say "damn you Halloween" just the other day! I have only had like 600 calories in meals today and the other 1400 in sweets lol x

 

[dd82]

Lol only a few sweets left over now, I feel awful an bloated today going to really try today

2x toast and jam

 

[time2go]

I'm going out for dinner with my husband then to Michael McIntyre will just try not eat sweets today lol d

 

[oasis6918]

Ooh enjoy xx

 

[dd82]

Sil went to see other day at 02 said he was sooo funny

Lunch 2x salad rolls

Dinner fish fingers mash and mushy peas

Snack mullet yog

 

[Cas3]

I live 30 mins from 02


Hope ur having a good day Debs xx

 

[dd82]

Not too bad so far today,

Two toast

Two salad rolls

Bag of crisps and muller light

Dinner will be fish fingers mash and mushy peas

 

[Cas3]

Food looks nice well done for getting back on track x

 

[dd82]

Thanks hon so far so good feel
Good today

 

[time2go]

Thanks hon so far so good feel
Good today

Yay to a good day

 

[Cas3]

Are you still up for our final wi b4 xmas! and anyone else who wants to join us x

 

[dd82]

Defo what have I got to lose lol

 

[dd82]

Finished with a toffee apple cupcake (last of damn Halloween food ) so day not horrific big not great but in the right track no huge binge which is great