Lost & Found... Map Gone AWOL!

[Greeneyes11]

Take it as slow as you like Katy.... we will still be here for you...

 

[Katycakes]

Thanks... OK for now... Bess, big thanks, have bookmarked this. Will keep going back to it.

hugs.

xxx

 

[miss jelly tot]

Hang in there Katy, on the wagon or walking beside it, it doesn't matter. Everyone is their supporting each other.

Bess great post! Thanks. I really need to get me some food control books.

 

[DisneyParis]

Great post Bess.

Katy, hope today is going ok for you. Remember to be as kind, supportive and patient with yourself as you would be to anyone else on minis feeling the same way. :hug99:

 

[Katycakes]

Still on track. Just been to dentist in local town for check-up & polish, back to work now...

xxx

 

[Bess]

Look at those gleaming gnashers! Can see them from here! xx

 

[Laura Croft]

Thinking of you Katy. xx

 

[Jessica Rabbit72]

me too hope you are okay
xxx

 

[Katycakes]

Yep, still here & OK.

Three hot choc shakes and quorn & sprouts = 810 day. Craving a little now but I will be OK I think. Can I do the same again tomorrow? Fingers crossed.

xxx

 

[sleepybird]

Im sure you can and will if you want it that badly Katy xxx

 

[Bess]

Should you be Sweetie? 810 I mean? Does it have to be 810? Would another plan be ok if it's easier to handle? Love, xxx

 

[Katycakes]

That's a question i don't know the answer to Bess, am surviving by stubborn-ness alone at this point.

I have such lovely minis friends, you help me more than you know. Feel like I took a jump out of a very high window and you were all at the bottom with a blanket stretched out between you... to catch me. Still a bit shell-shocked, but at least I didn't go 'splat' on the pavement.

Hugs, all.

xxx

 

[Bess]

Absolutely not, no splatting allowed. We are always there to catch our friends. xxx

 

[Katycakes]

Bright, sunny and frosty again here... sipping herb tea, looking forward to a hot choc. I won't say 'hopeful' because that's too much of a stretch, but I am here.

xxx

 

[Wales]

Saturday morning wave Katy. Bright sunshine and frost here too, with a big blue sky - inspired me to clean the patio windows so I can sit and look out and not be distracted/ ashamed by the dust.

Have a good day and weekend, be kind to yourself as you would be do one of us and you will be fine.

xxx

 

[miss jelly tot]

Feel like I took a jump out of a very high window and you were all at the bottom with a blanket stretched out between you... to catch me. Still a bit shell-shocked, but at least I didn't go 'splat' on the pavement.

Hugs, all.

xxx

Ahhh great thought. Thats lovely and im sure we wont let you do a Bradley Bramming lol.
Sound like you have moved down a floor today, have a great day hun x

 

[Katycakes]

Hard going, but I am still here. Two shakes down, one more & a meal to go...

xxx

 

[Porgeous]

Hey hun

Sorry to hear you sounding low.

What is the problem, have you tried to pin it down?

What is it you are finding hard?

Why is it you find it hard?

Is there anything you can do to make it easier or more enjoyable?

Are there obstacles that you can move to ease your path?

Hugs
x

 

[Bess]

Hi Katy, only just got online - computer probs this am and a lovely snowdrop walk this afternoon in the sunshine. Hope things are a little less unhappy. xx

 

[Katycakes]

What is it you are finding hard?
Why is it you find it hard?
Is there anything you can do to make it easier or more enjoyable?
Are there obstacles that you can move to ease your path?

Not sure I want to answer these...
I am finding it hard to stick to 810 for more than a few days at a time. When I 'crack' it ends up as a binge, the kind I thought I had left behind. Can last a day, or several. As used to happen, the result is always self-loathing, shame, despair. So... 810/binge. And repeat, over & over.
I don't know why it is so hard to stick to 810 when i loved it so much first. I know it's only short-term if I do it properly... yet I cannot find the zone. Have lost and gained the same few lbs again and again since January... and still I am no further forward. I am very stressed with work right now, which I know can trigger unwise eating, and have some other worries. But I do so want this to work and yet sabotage myself again and again. I am so stubborn I cannot seem to admit defeat and step up to more cals. I hate, hate, hate to fail.
What can I do to make it easier/more enjoyable? No idea, except just get on with it and get it over?
What obstacles can I move? Some of the stresses will ease, I suppose. I can get all choc out of my house and keep it out. I know I cannot trust myself right now.
I am so tired of all this, so sick of the same mistakes over and over.
Still cannot give up, or see a clear way forward.
So I just keep trying.

xxx