Week 2 Day 13
B - 2 x flumps(4.5 syns) + Apple
L - 2 x brown rolls (1 hexb & (6 syns) Salad cream (4 syns) Ham, cucumber and cheese (half hexa)
D - spag bowl - will add in mushrooms, pepper, red and white onions and use the other half of my hexa for cheese on top.
syns - 14.5
Walked into work today, did it in 35 mins so that was good. Nice bit of body magic and a cold icy walk to clear my head. Feeling very tired and if I'm honest a bit bummed out. Before I even finished typing that I checked my clue app, I'm not due on but I'm apparently ovulating which may explain my current mood. I'm wondering if it might also explain my lack of appetite? Well lack might be the wrong word.. I get hungry, but I'm not wanting to stuff my face between means, and when I am eating meals they are full of meat, and speed food, last night for example I literally had 3/4 speed on my plate! It might be because my body clock has shifted, I'm getting home earlier so I'm eating earlier, I'm getting up a bit earlier and walking into work. Lots of good changes but who knows if they are affecting my body. I feel like I've got this hollowness to my tummy, It's not quite a period pain, It's not really a pain, It's almost a light pressure? I'm pooping ( sorry) fine and I'm definitely eating enough! You know when your hungry and you don't get a change to eat anything and then it sort of passes and there is this hungry ethereal haze going on in your tummy and then it hits you like " I NEED TO EAT SOMETHING NOW! " I guess I kind of feel like that but I'm not getting to that point where I'm like OMG FEED ME!... I just feel.. hollow..yet full?
Now I know before I say this next sentence, some of you may think it's bad BUT for me, it's what works best and I'll explain why
- I generally weigh myself most days. I know some people really frown upon it but for me, I think it helps me no matter what the results. If I've had a good loss, I always make a note of the foods I ate etc and for me that's a day I'll repeat again at another stage. Equally if it's a sts or a gain it makes me look back and recheck syns, recheck speeds and I guess, without offending anyone... yes it seems a little OTT and obsessive but It's just my persona, I'm very much an all in kinda girl and weighing every day makes me feel in control ( I have control issues haha #I'mNotActuallyKiddingThough ) I weighed in on Sunday at 21st 9lbs and Tuesday morning I weighed myself and I was 21st 6lbs which YAY for me meant I'd hit my stone and I was ideally going to keep smashing it till Sunday and have another big-ish loss. I've weighed myself today and I'm still 21st 6lbs and now that I've come off my pill I'm secretly hoping I'm not one of those people that gain weight when they ovulate because I'm ALREADY one of those people that gain when they are on or due on .. lol as I say, I'm ok, I'm not going to go and start binging, seeing a bad result or rather not seeing what I want to see doesn't knock me off track, if anything it just highlights my journey. SO I walked into work today even though I'm still feeling super sore from falling over. The good news is James is coming over tomorrow night to stay and that's my peak day of ovulating so yaknow.. bow chicca wow wow.. PLUS maybe that means even if this week isn't a big one it will catch up with me next week and NEXT week will be a biggun.
If you made it this far then awesome because I'm just rambling haha.. either way, this hollow feeling girl is off to dream about her hot bubble bath later
ciao x