Yesterday got difficult in the evening after feeling fairly easy through the day. I realised what an 'emotional eater' I will probably always be!
I had some sad news from work...the boss is leaving, which is really going to change the whole dynamic of the place, I'm kind of dreading it....then we realised our washing machine had been leaking and some of the laminate floor has started to lift . Neither problem is at all the end of the world, but my immediate instinct was to eat, eat , eat!
I was going to have a skinny soup for tea, but really wanted something more solid. Couldn't face cooking, so had some asda Tuscan bean soup...one of the very few tinned soups I like, it's all beans and spices, gorgeous! So with the help of that and some carrots and pickled onions, I avoided a complete meltdown-stuff your face with chocolate-kind of event that I really could have gone for.
I don't count very strictly but reckon I was around 650 yesterday....a little high, but I could so easily have doubled that in 5 minutes, so I'm happy, and quite pleased to have detected a little bit of willpower there! It is the first time on a dd that I've felt that strong emotional need to eat, rather than just physical hunger.
Once I was in bed yesterday, safely away from temptation, I thought a bit more about exercise. This is the first time I've ever lost weight without exercising. At first I wanted to do it this way, as before its always been all or nothing....if I stopped exercising, the diet went out of the window, and vice versa. I wanted to keep it separate this time, so I knew that if the exercise wasn't happening I would still lose.
But the down side is I feel really wobbly! My tummy looks a bit like a deflated balloon, I can feel on my hips than I'm thinner, but the skin feels loose, I can't really explain but I don't like it at all! I feel a bit smaller inside, but my skin has not shrunk to fit. It might just be that this is how it is when you lose weight when you are over 40, but I'm hoping not. So I ordered a box set of jillian michaels, in the hope that she can make my skin fit me again! Got to be better than Eastenders celebs in pink hot pants doing little dance routines.....
so the plan is: jillian on uds, yoga or Pilates on dds. Not for any additional weight loss, just to feel less like a jelly!
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