marthacol1988
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Hey there lovely lady! Looking a bit gorgeous in your pic ;-) hope all all is well with you and your family xxx
All is well Stacey! I emailed you not that long ago keep in touch! Xx
Hey there lovely lady! Looking a bit gorgeous in your pic ;-) hope all all is well with you and your family xxx
I lost all my prev email addresses due to bloody passwords lol and couldn't log on here either. My new email is [email protected] (yes very original lol) drop me a message so I have yours again and we can have a natter! Xxx
What's the latest Hun xx
Hey Martha What about ya?? Hope your doing well , I ve been pants at this the second time around but Im on it again . your picture is fab by the way you lil stunner u lol x
How are you Lucy?
Hope is well? I'm doing okayish don't want to speak too soon. Get a few weeks under my belt and I can give a full update on my diary. Xx
A few weeks? A week is amazing, a day even, you can do it because youre awesome. #justsaying x
Great post! I too struggle with my demons and have the tendency to slip when willpower escapes me! Keep posting everything that's happening, will be good to get it all out! Best of luck for your new challenge! X
Hey guys
I'm biting the bullet and making myself accountable...... I've put this off for way too long
Today was day one again and I weighed in at 21 stone 9lb
Yes I know.... I'm really angry at myself getting down to 16.7 and putting all this weight back on but what'd done is done and all I can do is try again and I really hope that this teaches me the important lesson DO NOT GET COMFORTABLE!!! I hate the thought of leaving the house unless it is absolutely necessary..... It sucks
Not only have I let myself down but I feel like I have let you guys down..... Total lack of self control and eating EVERYTHING......seriously guys EVERYTHING
Seriously newbies... Learn from my mistakes
In September I was at my lowest feeling fantastic and going out socialising and loving life with my friends....... BIG MISTAKE
a lot has happened in my life since then
A close family friend passed away in February....... Final year of uni.......... Counselling diploma........ separated from my husband(mutual, who knows what will happen)....... along with my heart just not being in it has all resulted in this huge gain. I'm not looking for sympathy I just feel better getting this out and put my thoughts into this diary as it has always helped me I'm the past.
I do a few days and just pack it in because I'm feeling sorry for myself when I just need to suck it up and put my energy into my weight loss as truthfully with everything that has went in this last few months, it is my weight gain that is really effecting me the most.... Tomorrow I have my last exam for my counselling diploma. Uni finished last week and I will be graduating exactly 1 month from today July 9th 2014 so all I have to do for the next few months is look for a job and lose weight.
So here I am guys..... Flaws and all
I need this diary and interaction to be able to give this some kind of meaning and to share my journey with you wonderful people that understand what I'm going through and I am so grateful for the very special people I see as forever friends that have met on here thus far (hi Ria lol) you have stuck by me through thick and thin(er) literally!
So I'm going to be posting in here very regularly to keep me in check!!!
Silence is not golden guys if I'm not around then chances are I'm not doing so great!
Going to Liverpool on Friday evening with my daughter until Sunday evening so that will be the real test... haven't seen my two best friends in 2 months so sticking to my guns and having shakes will be a major achievement!!! They are supportive so I know I won't be led astray and any bad decisions will be my own and to be honest I'm starting this diary almost to make sure I do stick with it haha the guilt of coming on here having cheated is unbearable to me!
I do have one evening off planned which is my graduation night and it will be an evening not a full day!
Then 100% until then and right after then
I'm blabbing now ......... So now il go to bed haha
Talk soon guys and thanks for reading up to this point
M xxxx
Yay for being back on it and in the diary zone! And hi! lol. I feel like we're back on it, I dont want to speak too soon or tempt fate or whatever, but we could be back where we were a year and 2 months ago, it just feels sort of ok again. Which also (dare i say it) marks a year since we both pretty much started spiralling - It was precisely a year ago today I weighed in at my lowest, and it was my holiday, and your holiday that set us both on paths to ruin. Oh boy, if I hadn't been silly I could have been maintaining a year (again, newbies listen up, don't do it!!!) Anyway off to probably repeat myself in my diary now! xx
Great post! I'm starting on Saturday, scared but exciting. You've done it once, you can do it again! Weight losses like yours is whats given me the motivation to do something about my weight once and for all! xx