Wow the diet lifestyle really is on your mind with a strange dream like that Mere. Instead of thinking about the diet think about where you are now, how fit you are and what you have achieved since you started. I think you're amazing, knowledgeable and controlled. I certainly hope I remain as stable weight wise as you have over the last year when I hit goal. You're always there for all of us and keep us going. i have more to lose in weight than you actually weigh!
I hope your BP settles down. Treat yourself to a massage or something to take the focus off diet and exercise and help you refocus. Sleep well xxx