Hopefully we'll get to the bottom of it, all I want is to understand myself and am hoping by doing that and being kinder to myself the binging will be more controlled.
Oh yes! That's so important. Always being kind to yourself, looking at the positives. For example, if I do binge, which is so rare now, I try to congratulate myself on how well I'm doing with it
That sounds mad, but looking to how I'm aware I'm doing it, whether I've managed to stop it at some point. Anything really. Looking at it as a challenge, rather than a losing battle.
It's all in the head. It really is.
) I have spent my maintenance hoping that I'd wake up and never binge again, looking for a cure so that it would stop completely. Of course this hasn't happened!!! So I have constantly berated myself and subsequently constantly binged. Lol hope that makes a bit of sense
I don't think I could do this on my own, I need the therapy Someone to get my mind on the right track. For you to have got so far on your own is truely inspiring
had the urge a couple of times but managed to avert disaster. Not sure if this is down to my chat with therapist or the self hypnotism, or both. I don't really care as long as I've regained a bit of control again.) I've started running with a friend A few of us have entered for the Race for Life, which down here will be run in July. We've been running along the beach after the school run, we run to a cafe which is about 2 miles along the beach, swig down a bottle of water, have a good chat and run back again. It's so much more fun than the gym, unfortunately I've now signed up for 6 months. I could have saved some pennies
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Mornin Tracey,
just caught up with your diet.
Wow, quality comments from yourself KD & Dancing.
and I agree with them, you're doing brilliantyl.
-You've lost 4st & maintained for coming up to a yr.
-Having been pretty well forced to leave old job due to stress etc you have retrained & set up & run your own business successfully.
- you manage 4 kids & Scott, cover yourself in butterflies & run the race for life.
So what do you do in your spare time..
Binges: bad, distressing, self sabotaging etc. Need to be damped down & kept as quiescent as poss, but on the scales of life.....Tracey is much much heavier than her Demons.
looking foreward to hearing about how the next session goes.
XXX
) and one for fridge magnets. Quite reasonably priced so am going to order some, I'll send you some samples.
Hiya Tracey
Just catching up with your diary - so sorry to hear about the incident with your DD - how is she know and has the case progressed any further?
Kim's a lot better now thanks Jan. The incident hasn't affected her OCD which was a big concern of mine. The OCD by the way is still improving. Kim had stopped taking the medication for a while but is back on it again now, counselling has been doing wonders for her too
Police are no longer pursuing the incident as there were no witnesses
So glad you've had a good week and are realising that you should be very proud of what you've done and happy with yourself -keep it up
Thank you.
I've got to ask Jan, who is the new avatar
Tracey
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Kim's a lot better now thanks Jan. The incident hasn't affected her OCD which was a big concern of mine. The OCD by the way is still improving. Kim had stopped taking the medication for a while but is back on it again now, counselling has been doing wonders for her too
That's good to hear, I'm glad it didn't have any long term affect.
Police are no longer pursuing the incident as there were no witnesses
That's so wrong & unfair!
I've got to ask Jan, who is the new avatar
Tracey
x
Shame on you Tracey.
you've got kds...so why weren't you watching Dr who Last Sat?
Also how come you missed my thread entitled
" CDC's to be made redundant ..panic.shock horror?"
Lol We can't watch Dr Who in our house as it scares Deven!
I did read the thread and have to say didn't realise it was a joke at first
The baddies needed to bredd millions of babies,so came to earth to use us as unwitting incubators.
set up a company called 'adipose' one pill a day side effect free & guarentees to lose 1kg every 24 hrs.
compant slogan...take adipose & your fat just walks away.
& it did. all those little adiposes hatch out while you sleep & wander off looking for their nanny.
try & catch the repeat if you can. it was one of the best episodes ever & not v scarey & my kids all kept saying
mummy can you take adipose please cos we want one of those babaies!
I got quite emotional this time round But came away feeling positive. I think there are many things I have to let go of, it's hard as these issues have been lifelong companions and even though they do me no good, letting go of them still isn't easy. Even though I felt like everyone's Mum/Grandma I had a great time. In fact I was someones mum as my daughter was there too. Now lots of kids would be embarrassed by their mum's dancing the night away but in fact I was the embarrassed one as Kim introduced me to everyone as her mum, even the cloakroom attendant How sweet is that, made me feel all fuzzy Oh to be 20 again I didn't suffer from them then.
LOL Tracey, not as young as you once were. I find now that recovering from a good night out takes days!!
Trouble is when you're out having fun you do feel young again
Glad you had a good time & lovely your DD was pleased you were there too.
It was great and so is she
Sounds like the therapy is working, hard to let go of things but needs to be done and once you get over the feelings of loss, they should be replaced by a wonderful feeling of relief and lightness.
I really hope so Jan.
Take care
x
Sounds like you had a great night out Tracey - as long as the hangover was worth it
not sure I thought the hangover was worth it but Scott found it amusing! I watched the marathon whilst munchin on several slices of toast followed by coffee and biscuits and the day just got worse from there. Weighed myself this morning and am 8lbs over my goal weight I knew I'd put on a bit as my favourite jeans felt a bit tighter than usual. So am toying with what plan to follow to get back to goal. I know 8lb isn't disasterous but I do not want to let it slip any further. I think maybe the 1000 plan would be better. 
