MizKirsty - Becoming my inner skinny!

[Mizkirsty]

Yeh I'm feeling good ATM even though I have a long way to go to target I'm not completely disgusted anymore!

I'm enjoying looking better in smaller clothes and wearing nice clothes and not being so self conscious! You know! I'm the smallest I can ever remember being so I am enjoying it ATM !!

Yeah I love asda clothing!! I need some "colder weather " clothing too!! I love those cardies might have to invest!

Well hooters was a nightmare everything including the salad was fried I opted for a chicken CIAbatta sandwich thing! I'm sure the chicken was fried though! But the cals were the same as a Caesar salad (we all know how bad those can be!)

But I failed and had chocolate fudge cake but surprisingly it was a small portion which wasn't what I was expecting tbh! So I'll be extra good today to hopefully make up for it!!

But I did have a nice time I wouldn't go back not somewhere id choose to go tbh!! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

Ooh the cake sounds nice, I'm glad you had a good time albeit you wouldn't go again, it's still nice to have a bit of time out

Everything was fried!!!...including the salad...jeez, that's a bit much isn't it!

I think every now and again it doesn't hurt, it'll make your metabolism work a bit harder for a while

 

[Mizkirsty]

It was lovely to get out tbh! The company was ok (my best friend is going out with my exex-bf and hes a knob - it was his birthday but he left after 45mins because he is just an idiot and misery guts lol).

The food was meh! Wouldnt really say i enjoyed it and mr tango is assuring me i wasnt meant to eat it!!

Ive been naughty again at work ugh! Ive eaten a few biscuits and some flapjack!!! I am completely finished as a student now!! How scary just the AL till i really start!! So it was a kinda celebratory treat fest - however excuses like that arent going to make me skinny so im either gonna hit the gym and feel the burn or go for a jog!!!

Feel both physically and mentally exhausted tbh! and cannot wait to have a break - and oddly im really missing spinning - hoping ill manage to go tomorrow evening!!!

I think the lack of exercise is demotivating me and causing my fatigue which is causing my laziness with the diet!!

Oh well not much longer hopefully!!
Pasta salad tonight to make some of those naughty calories up!! xx

 

[bunny_hops]

It was lovely to get out tbh! The company was ok (my best friend is going out with my exex-bf and hes a knob - it was his birthday but he left after 45mins because he is just an idiot and misery guts lol).

The food was meh! Wouldnt really say i enjoyed it and mr tango is assuring me i wasnt meant to eat it!!

Ive been naughty again at work ugh! Ive eaten a few biscuits and some flapjack!!! I am completely finished as a student now!! How scary just the AL till i really start!! So it was a kinda celebratory treat fest - however excuses like that arent going to make me skinny so im either gonna hit the gym and feel the burn or go for a jog!!!

Feel both physically and mentally exhausted tbh! and cannot wait to have a break - and oddly im really missing spinning - hoping ill manage to go tomorrow evening!!!

I think the lack of exercise is demotivating me and causing my fatigue which is causing my laziness with the diet!!

Oh well not much longer hopefully!!
Pasta salad tonight to make some of those naughty calories up!! xx

Most men are knobs hun lol! My ex is the biggest knob in the world (he soooo wishes that were true lol!)

You've had so much pressure on you, trying to find a new job, then all those cack hours on top, it's bound to catch up on you and you deserve to celebrate and it was only a little celebration, so don't be so hard on yourself.

Like you say, you've got a good 3 weeks off now, so you can be gym bunny...it'll all work out

 

[Mizkirsty]

Yeah I know but I don't wanna waste another week - plus I gotta loose something ATM I've had a 3lb loss last month so really I need 5lbs this month else the doc may get funny!!

But had a completely free dinner sw free that is lol jackets and beans!

And off to the gym - not that I actually want to lol - but feeling guilty so I have to lol xx

 

[bunny_hops]

Ooh jackets and beans....yum

When is your Dr's check hun? I'm going on Monday

 

[Mizkirsty]

I've got 4wks supply left! Last time she gave me two months! So I wanna gave lost a good amount!!

Xx

 

[Mizkirsty]

I kinda dont want her to think im failing bc shes giving me extra breathing room - bc its cheaper if she gives me more at one time - the prescription charge is static no matter of the quantity.

Plus i dont wanna feel like im wasting week again getting back into the yoyoing of dieting again - bc i went 6 months without a sts or gain so i know i can do it if i really put my mind to it - which is what will happen next week - working ridiculous hours means i cant fully focus!!!

Went to the gym lasst night - didnt think id make it as i was feeling knackered but went and worked out till 10pm!! Go me!! LOL i must have lost the plot or something!!! hehe!!

Oh well hopefully that will have burnt off some of those naughty treats i had yesterday!!! Mr tango has punished me again this morning - im surprised bc it was quite severe (tmi) - im wondering if this is actually hooters as opposed to the sweet treats?

Planning on spinning tonight - im really missing it!!! So hopefully ill still have the motivation to go when ive finished work! Cant wait to really get back into the exercise next week - how odd is that i never thought id be saying that lol!!!

I also wanna plan a trip home! See if anyone notices the loss - but tbh im just feeling so much better now i know im different and thats all that counts!!!

Hope your all well!!!
xxxx

 

[RavenMoon]

i love jacket potatoes , have you tried sweet potato ? i eat sweet potatoes instead of jackets now. same amount of cals/carbs ect but slower release of energy and more vitamins ect x

 

[Mizkirsty]

No never tried sweet potatoes baked before - maybe ill give it a go - i like the taste of them - had them as wedges last time i think!!!

Thanks for the idea - it will mix things up a bit too - especially when i get bored!! xx

 

[Mizkirsty]

Well ive just got in from another meal out tonight - yes another

Frankie and bennys and considering id had a picky day and had ruined it already why not completely blow out hay?

Ugh - so i had chicken wings, a chicken caesar salad pizza (a thin italian pizza bas - no tom puree - grilled chicken and lettuce with motzarella and caesar sauce drizzled) with a shared side of garlic bread and avoided any dessert!

So bc i feel so crapy and guilty - i have planned my menus from tomorrow to monday - providing two options for breakfast 2 for lunch and 2 for dinner etc.
Also incorporated planned exercise - im not overly concerned about wi monday - i may even miss it tbh - bc i know ill get a great loss for the following wi!

Ugh just feeling down now - its funny how my feelings about eating have changed previously eating made me happy and comforted me - however im finding its making me low and depressed - once that finally clicks prior to eating i think ill truely have sorted my eating problems!!!

xx

 

[Mis-behave]

Last I went to F&B's I had grilled gammon with baked potato all sauces on the side, plus some salad.. Ok huge amount of gammon but very nice! Potato was size of small planet! Ate most of it!! Also had a few chicken wings...

Love chicken wings.. When I go to bbqs I get asked to bring my marinated wings.. garlic, ginger, soy sauce, chilli sauce.. Leave overnight 40 mins in oven.. And done SIGH!! I can eat soooooooooo many of them

 

[Mizkirsty]

Well I suppose at least the f&b ones aren't fried - or dont seem to be!!

I need to get my head back in it!! Tbh I think knoing I was coming up to some time off I kinda got a bit slack knowing I could make it up over those weeks type thing!! No eating out next week!!!

Hoping for a 4lb loss by following Monday!! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

Well ive just got in from another meal out tonight - yes another

Frankie and bennys and considering id had a picky day and had ruined it already why not completely blow out hay?

Ugh - so i had chicken wings, a chicken caesar salad pizza (a thin italian pizza bas - no tom puree - grilled chicken and lettuce with motzarella and caesar sauce drizzled) with a shared side of garlic bread and avoided any dessert!

So bc i feel so crapy and guilty - i have planned my menus from tomorrow to monday - providing two options for breakfast 2 for lunch and 2 for dinner etc.
Also incorporated planned exercise - im not overly concerned about wi monday - i may even miss it tbh - bc i know ill get a great loss for the following wi!

Ugh just feeling down now - its funny how my feelings about eating have changed previously eating made me happy and comforted me - however im finding its making me low and depressed - once that finally clicks prior to eating i think ill truely have sorted my eating problems!!!

xx

Planning is definitely a good idea, it will help you keep a better handle on things.

It's funny you say that about eating foods used to make you feel happy, and now eating just makes you feel sad guilty, I am the exact way now! It's awful to have such a bad relationship with food, but I'm sure we'll crack that hun!

 

[Mizkirsty]

Well a big fat miserable fail already!!

My oh is torturing me I'm sure!!

We have gone out to eat again - thankfully I've not eaten breakfast so lunch was a lunch an breakie combined!

I had a plain jacket salmon and a side salad! No dressing etc - so I put some Mayo which I'm syning at 3syns- could have been worse at least with regards to sw it's not off plan!

And 1/2 a slice of garlic CIAbatta - syns to be discovered - but even with this I can have a 100% day if I only eat the free foods now - plus a run later!!

xx

 

[Mizkirsty]

Planning is definitely a good idea, it will help you keep a better handle on things.

It's funny you say that about eating foods used to make you feel happy, and now eating just makes you feel sad guilty, I am the exact way now! It's awful to have such a bad relationship with food, but I'm sure we'll crack that hun!

I've planned but eaten out - but my dinner this evening was going to salmon and mash - so ice not done too badly and if I'm peckish I'll just eat the lunch I'd planned! So I'm not overly worried!!

Yeah I can't believe how mucked up my relationship with food is!! It's amazing how it can dictate my life the way it does!!

I'm gonna get back into the beck book maybe that will help mr sort it out?! Xx

 

[bunny_hops]

Hope you're having a good weekend hun!

 

[Mizkirsty]

Didn't really manage to get completely focused over the weekend - think it was knowing I hadn't been good all week tbh! But yesterday I managed a 1/2 lb loss so chuffed with that!!

So yesterday I was 100% during the day and then had my treat night (had pizza!) the only reason I had this is bc I'm not having treat night again for 3 weeks so I can shift as much weight as poss!!

Yesterday I also did a spin class and an aquafit class!! So I'm sure the damage from the pizza is limited!!

Today I will be 100% aiming for 5 syns a day max of 10 rather than 15! And a min of one exercise class/ gym sess - most of the week I'm booked in for two classes!!

I'm aiming for a min of 3lbs loss!! xx

 

[bunny_hops]

I'm sure you'll do that hun! Pizza sounds great as a treat, and I think we need a treat now and again!

 

[Mizkirsty]

I think knowing i was going to be 100% for the next 3 weeks with no treats i needed to eat what ive been craving and avoiding for the last three weeks!! Lol - its done outta my system and im 100% focused this week!! Im actually already excited for mondays wi!!

Been to body conditioning today - goodness i ache already and usually its the following day i suffer - good signs lol !!!

Feeling really positive!!!
xxxx