Muffy's battle with her self! 16 weeks 100% ....

[nomoremuffintop]

loves you xxx

Loves you muchly x

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Hi muffy, just wanted to wish you luck for today I hate to see you being so down on yourself, you have already done so much better than most people do on this diet! You are so much healthier now and look great I hope I can do as well as you already have xxx

Thank you loved up for that Lovely message. I feel like such a failure I just don't know what to do?
I should know how to do this by now shouldn't I? A straight 12 months of trying to do it but it gets harder and harder the more practise I get! Oh well, one day ill be back. Ill keep an eye on you all though so you will still see me about. Xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Babe you have not let anyone down don't be silly and just because your not on exante doesn't mean you can't be around the boards we all love you and we are still your friends

I know babe thank you xx

Massive hugs muffy, shells right hunny u haven't let anyone down isn't wat weight loss journeys all about huh? We all have a goal but getting there Is no plain sailing we have a few bumps along the way don't be too hard on yourself chick we are all here for you

Good luck with healthy eating for now, I'm not on the exante wagon Just yet do trying to b healthy - ish ;-)

Sending u love n hugs

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Aww im sick of bumps and just give up! Really what I should do is try harder though! Silly Muffy. Hope eating healthy ish works out for you hun. We will get there one day xx

Muffy, healthy eating is a really good choice.
If you can maintain, then its all great practise for the future eh ?

Thanks Marge. Yes my plan is to maintain. But it will eat away at me every day that I waste not losing weight. Im really fed up. But iv missed feta and olives and will enjoy them while I can have some today for my lunch xx

 

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

Hiya beautiful right firstly, your not a failure so don't even think that and secondly, your gonna eat healthy, what's so wrong with that?
I know how your feeling tho, I'm the exact same at the minute so HUGS xxxxxxxxx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

After feeling so stupid yesterday for failing on day one again I couldn't face posting last night but I had a lovely evening in front of the tv with hubby and had time to think. I thought he had ordered Chinese so I wasn't happy (I'd planned egg and ham salad for dinner) but when the food arrived it was kebab, a chicken Shish with lettuce white cabbage and onions and I had some jalapeno houmous with it. So overall not too bad. I also drank a bottle of wine so that was a bad choice! I ate 1 choc digestive and not the whole packet which is major good work for me

I weighed myself this morning and I lost half a lb. I didn't fancy toast for the 1st time in weeks I have already drank a pint of water instead of coke. I haven't eaten or wanted to eat anything yet. How annoying. Its like because I can have something at any time I don't want anything! Anyway I will be watching you all so ill see you later. George xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Hiya beautiful right firstly, your not a failure so don't even think that and secondly, your gonna eat healthy, what's so wrong with that?
I know how your feeling tho, I'm the exact same at the minute so HUGS xxxxxxxxx

That hug went down a treat thank you xx I saw you had a great day yesterday. Are you back on the wagon today? Xx

 

[charlie's~mummy]

Hey sweetie firstly you have to stay around just cos your not Exante I for one will enjoy reading what you eat! **drools** lol secondly when your head just isn't in it there is no point starting it I fully understand when you say the bipolar is making it hard because it's Such a vicious circle you eat to feel better you hate yourself after it you try to be good you feel down you eat to feel better etc etc I've been there so many times but you have already come such a long way you've done amazingly well enjoy your healthy eating babes just see it as practice for maintenance and when your ready or if you want to come back to ts well be here ready and waiting to give you all the support you need big squishy hugs xxxxxx

 

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

That hug went down a treat thank you xx I saw you had a great day yesterday. Are you back on the wagon today? Xx

Aw I did lol bet your were all sick of our status updates and pics eh lol

Yep, I've gotta do it muffy, if I stick at it I could be at goal or very very close by the time I move home!! How amazing would that be?? xx

 

[shellreed2011]

Babe why don't you put it in your head that your on exante BUT that you can eat if you want? Maybe it's a case of mind over matter? Or maybe do ws?

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Sorry to be so rude to not reply to all of you I just had to pop in and say "food isn't that great!". I had feta and olive salad at lunch time. For dinner I made myself a chilli chicken sandwich but threw most of it in the bin. Im so fed up with myself!!! On TS I can't stop thinking about food and when I can eat what I like I foot want to will anything ever work? X promise to read and reply to all later xx

 

[DustQueen]

Sorry to be so rude to not reply to all of you I just had to pop in and say "food isn't that great!". I had feta and olive salad at lunch time. For dinner I made myself a chilli chicken sandwich but threw most of it in the bin. Im so fed up with myself!!! On TS I can't stop thinking about food and when I can eat what I like I foot want to will anything ever work? X promise to read and reply to all later xx

I know I feel like this all the time

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Hey sweetie firstly you have to stay around just cos your not Exante I for one will enjoy reading what you eat! **drools** lol secondly when your head just isn't in it there is no point starting it I fully understand when you say the bipolar is making it hard because it's Such a vicious circle you eat to feel better you hate yourself after it you try to be good you feel down you eat to feel better etc etc I've been there so many times but you have already come such a long way you've done amazingly well enjoy your healthy eating babes just see it as practice for maintenance and when your ready or if you want to come back to ts well be here ready and waiting to give you all the support you need big squishy hugs xxxxxx

oh i want to come back so bad :cry:

thanks for the post babe.

Aw I did lol bet your were all sick of our status updates and pics eh lol

Yep, I've gotta do it muffy, if I stick at it I could be at goal or very very close by the time I move home!! How amazing would that be?? xx

amazing!! get on with it! dont mess about like i have, its so not worth it :sigh:

Babe why don't you put it in your head that your on exante BUT that you can eat if you want? Maybe it's a case of mind over matter? Or maybe do ws?

im trying to get my head clear enough to do exante properly. i want to do it so much i just have some mental block at the moment? plus i have only 5 days of shakes left so no point starting and stopping again! i gave some of my shakes to my sister in law so she could start last monday with me but that didnt even help me to stay on it!i was going to buy more with her but then went to asda and spent my food budget and half of my exante budget on food shopping. i want to come back so bad but i have no money to buy shakes now i have been eating 'normal' no binging or going mad on rubbish.
hope your ok babe, will text you later xx

I know I feel like this all the time

so frustrating eh? loves you xx

 

[nomoremuffintop]

i have been eating 'normal' all week since failing yet again.
for example yesterday i had no breakfast because i had to go out but at lunch i had a jacket potato with cottage cheese and side salad. i measured and weighed it all out and it came to 348kcal so i thought i done well and i was stuffed! didnt eat again until about 5 when i had a a sausage (145kcal) and a bramley apple and raspberry pie which was a mistake at a huge 225kcal for one teeny pie! anyway i ended up having 2 of those, then some mini milk choc cups that the kids left which after eating the teeny things i checked the box and id eaten 328kcal in one mouthfull! ouch. anyway i have had some granery wholewheat toast so far and i have drank alot more water than i normally would over the last few days too. i have sts weight so aslong as i dont gain while doing this its not so bad. i am going to have a few rum and cokes (need to get rid of the bottle out of the house so im not tempted once im back ) with hubby tonight and jacket potato with beans and cheese for dinner as a treat. if i can find some way of buying them ill be back on shakes asap.

i bought a size 14 dress yesterday in the 2nd hand shop lol sounds like a silly idea but i really wanted to get a fitted dress that had a zip on it to use as a guide to weight loss instead of those friggin scales! im done with scales. they are going! i dont even like the dress i bought but it was £1 and i cant do up the zip which goes up the side so i am going to take a pic of me with it on when i re start and then take a pic each week with it on. so instead of weigh in im doing a zip up challenge lol maybe i start a new thread>?? who wants to do the zip up challenge with me? xx

 

[Little-Miss-Perfect]

Wow I love the zip up challenge

Runs to the charity shop............... xx

 

[DustQueen]

Me too great idea at the moment I'm winning the zip down challenge

 

[precious]

Good luck muffy sounds like a fab challenge babe x

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[shellreed2011]

Oh I'm in only I got my wedding dress for the challenge lol

 

[nomoremuffintop]

Just had a cheese jacket potato. I am having a terrible totm and have no money at all! I want to come back so bad. I want to do until valentines which is hubby's birthday and inlaws are coming up so I'd love to be back in the 12's by then. Just going to start back with what I have (about a weeks worth) but need a miracle to happen so that I can buy some shakes might even be back tomorrow? X

 

[DustQueen]

Just had a cheese jacket potato. I am having a terrible totm and have no money at all! I want to come back so bad. I want to do until valentines which is hubby's birthday and inlaws are coming up so I'd love to be back in the 12's by then. Just going to start back with what I have (about a weeks worth) but need a miracle to happen so that I can buy some shakes might even be back tomorrow? X

Awww hunny let me know if I can help x I'm back Friday I think eeekkkkk

 

[Sage-femme]

Hey muffy, your avatar is amazing x