I don’t know where this came from, at one point I felt like I could stay on CD forever, I was even contemplating doing 810 for longer at one point but I think my heart and my head have had enough now, and are telling me to stop.
My original goal was 9stone 7lbs, a size 10 & 8 weeks on CD, I’m a size 10, I’m 9.5.5lb on my scales in the morning, and I’m in my 10th week so I did what I set out to do. I have had ‘pauses’ as Linda Spangle would say, not spectacular cookie monster style binges, but I have a small praline chocolate, a couple of sweets and a small slice of home made birthday cake over the last 5 or so days. I didn’t eat them because I was bored, or fed up, or lonely, or mad, I ate them because I wanted to enjoy the taste and I did! I ate them slowly & savoured each & every thing I ate. I will admit I felt guilty afterwards, but only from a CD can only be done 100% kind of way and I need to be 100% until I finish. I didn’t fall off the wagon & think ‘Oh well, I may as well eat what I want now!’ though, I went to the pub with my BFF & her & her OH got a meal & a drink & I just had water, I was fine! I think my bad pre CD eating issues are resolved now, I won’t eat for the wrong reasons or overeat, I will enjoy food in moderation!
Everyone has told me I look great now & don’t need to lose any more weight, even my Mum! I don’t think she has EVER said I don’t need to lose a bit more here or there. I just feel a bit wobbly round my hips, thighs, belly & arms, but then I think, is anyone ever happy with themselves? I blame the media, airbrushing celebs & pointing out every tiny bit of cellulite as disgusting, it’s skewed our views of what is normal. Even models don’t look like they do in magazines, how on earth I could ever compare, I don’t know!!
So I’m going to finish up my stuff, try to lose another half stone on the way then use WW to maintain, or lose a few pounds if I feel the need. I feel like I can stick to a less rigid plan now, CD & Linda Spangle plus the wisdom from you lovely ladies have given me the tools I need to have a healthy relationship with food. Another thing I’m worried about however, with carrying on CD these last few weeks I feel like I’m getting obsessed with food, planning what I’m going to eat when I finish, where me & OH are going to go for meals & what desserts I’m going to eat. I don’t want food to be a massive issue due to feeling deprived lately. I want to feel comfortable around it so the sooner I get through this last bit the better!
I spoke to my CDC & she suggested I go onto 1000 but I want to do this last little bit 810 & get the most loss out of it then never ever go back, if I have products in the cupboard the threat will always be there!!
I understand now how emotional people get battling whether to carry on or not, it’s unbelievable stressful, I've gone from being happy go lucky to panicking about it all, it's all you can think about. It can definitely mess your head up. Whilst you’re head is in the game CD is amazing, once it’s gone I personally don’t think it’s sustainable. If I hadn’t bought so many products I’d have switched to 1000 this week.