thanks ladies. Shanny - you are my inspiration and when i feel despondent I read your posts cos i know you did it.
suepat - thanks sue, i am glad i sts, and know i can easily maintain now, but TOM really threw me.
so diary, as promised here i am. sunday morning. one litre down and one shake made and ready to drink. i had a long chat with hubby last night and asked for his support. he is great but since i lost the bulk of the weight he always says 'go on, have a taste, it wont hurt', and its so easy sometimes to say ok and eat. he now understands now that i need to lose the last stone. i have hols in 6 weeks and i know i am gonna gain so if i lose towards my goal at least any gain will be manageable. also, i want to get to goal, i am sick of always telling myself theres no point getting to 10 stone as i will fail, i want to do it for me. also, i need to have a good week for me. i feel so good having lost weight but i know how easily it goes back on, i dont want to forever yoyo. i want to lose those last few pounds. this week i have decided to go right back to basics - ss100% . no salads for work and no extras. i need some loss this week and i need to get back into the flow. i know it wont be easy as i have a killer TOM. severe back ache and tummy ache and hundreds of jobs round the house to do. only i can do this, and only i controls what goes in my mouth. if i can do ok today i know i will be set for the week..... please let me be good this week!!!! will report back this evening on how i have done.