My Diary...

[leeds123]

thanks gogo. my first 30lbs were lost slowly over 13 weeks and without fail i had every sat off. then i maintained for 4 weeks and in week 5 i had salads and shakes and thought i would lose but maintained again. this week i look to be on course for a good loss and it has been mentally great to go back to 100% ss. i can do this ok as i know i have saturday off plan, but i know some people struggle with this. doing 100% ss has been really good for me and i feel back in the swing of things.

ps - another 100% day for me, although its 6pm and am on second shake so had nothing at work! never mind, weigh in tomorrow!

 

[sweet_girl123]

ur progress is lukin relii gd hun well dun.. i am reli pleased for u..... it is hard to b motivated bt it is even better wen u stik to it....go u!! wish u all the best with the diet and will b readin ur diary as i av been doin up til nw,...:d mwahz

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning Leeds soooooooo delighted for you 'now can you give me a good talking too lol'

back on ss today 100%, im hoping i don't let myself down.xx

 

[leeds123]

hello!!! its 8am and i wanted to report that this week i lost 5lbs!!!! hurrah hurrah hurrah. am weighing in a day early as have busy day tomorrow, but being 100% since sunday has deffo made a difference to me. actually my manual scales said 6lb loss but it kept moving so i am sticking to a 5lbs loss as its FINE with me. to think i had aimed to lose 7lbs before my hols in 6 weeks!!!! i am almost there. today is a maintenance day for me and ihave my salad with me at work with chicken for tea. so happy for myself that i finally got in the zone and so near to goal.

its deffo given me food for thought (pardon the pun!) though. I mean, i have had a really good loss after 5 weeks of maintaining so maybe now i am near goal i should take it easier and have some restarts like this to boost my losses???? I'll rephrase that, should i maintain for a few weeks then doo ss 100% again like this week or should i just plod along. For now, I feel at goal even though I am a few pounds away but it is safe to say i am at the goal of under 11 stone iwanted to be at when i started CD. in fact, when i started i wanted to be 11.7 stone and i have passed that so from now its slow and steady for me and i will try and ss 100% during the week and maintain over the weekends (or fri/sat which are my preferred weekends)?? any thought anyone?

My ultimate goal is now to get to 10.7 and there i will stay as i do not want to go any lower. for now i want to get there for my hols in 5 weeks but i am happy where i am too, the pressure is off and now it is off this whole thing feels so much easier.

sorry if this post is rambling, i am just trying to formulate my thoughts and see where i want/need to be. I know i will gain on hols so am preparing for that, and its school hols soon and will not be 100% ss that week so am just cruising along for now and LOVING my new size and look. if anyone has any thoughts or suggestions then please feel free to comment i would love to hear from you.

as for my cd, well its maintain for the next 2 days then back to 100% ss on sunday again. wish me luck!

 

[sweet_girl123]

wish u all the best hun i am sure u will do great, u av dun brilliantly up til now, ur losses are amazin....well dun ....i cnt wait til i get into smaller sizes clothes as well it is honestly the beest feelin that you get.....bt u keep at it hun and if u av maintained b4 then i am sure that you will defoo b able to maintain this tym around again....ur so lucky ur goin on holiday i aint goin nowher this summer got no money n i will need to wrk full tym in order to make nuf money for nx yr at uni 'sigh'.. tc mwahz

 

[leeds123]

dear diary, i am back for week 2 of losing the last stone! i am going to be ss 100% today and nothing is going to get in myway!!

had water and a shake this morning and feeling good. just hope i can follow last weeks success and stay at 100% as i love how i feel. theres nothing worse than doing cd badly and not losing. also, now the pressure deffo is off i am not going to be hard on myself. need to go and have my head chat to myself to ready myself up for 100% as i find this really helps my mindset. evenings are my downfall, so after i have made the dinner for tongiht (lasagna) I will come up and have a long bath and do some ironing..... will report back on how well i have done!

 

[DebbieMiller1981]

Make sure you do have that chat with yourself hun- as only you can control what goes in your mouth. You have to remember how amazingly you have done though and shouold be very proud of yourself. xxx

 

[leeds123]

hi again! thanks debbie, how you doing? are you feeling better?

well, i had to taste the lasagna mince (tiny taste) and had one sliver of pasta but apart from that am doing ok. had 3 litres and 2 shakes so far but think i am going to have a big cuppa tea and my choc cd bar this evening as have a bit of a headache coming on. sundays are always weird, but nearly there now!

 

[DebbieMiller1981]

Yes I am fine now thanks hun

Just noticed you've lost 5lbs since your restart which is GREAT! So only 9lbs to go is that right? That's nothing- you will be at target and looking AMAZING in no time so certainly don't worry about a tiny bit of pasta!
Have a good week hun x

 

[leeds123]

urghh, mondays!!! have been out and about ALL day today but managed 2 shakes. had no water yet though and will only manage to have about 1litre to thats bad. also, as i have had no water i had some cheese too, a tiny bit, but i now know how important it is to have water on cd!

anyway, doing ok so far, but feeling hungry today. not physical hunger really, more head hunger. when the family are having their dinner i am going to go to asda and look at clothes as i dont trust mysef around food today at all!!! anyway, not sure i will lose anything this week as not feeling it but will carry on regardless. good luck all!

 

[leeds123]

what a gorgeous day. the weather really affects my mood, and today it is so nice i feel great. however, yesterday was not a good cd day. ended up nibbling on lasagna, felt bad, decided not to have my last shake, felt even worse, felt hungry and had an apple. so although ididnt eat much it still felt like a bad cd day. back on it 100% today, wish me luck!

 

[leeds123]

so onto wednesday. god i was SO hungry last night, so desperate to just have something, i decided to have a snack at night. however, i really pushed myself and managed to stick to it 100%. 100% days are so good, and good for the mindset as today i feel v virtuous! anyway, not so hungry today and at work so plodding through.

looks like its a slow loss week this week, but after last weeks loss i am not too concerned and just hope i can have a good loss next week. after next week i will be on maintenance for a fortnight during school hols, and once half term is over i will do one further week of ss 100% and then i am off for my AI holiday!!! so, given that i will be on maintenance 810 for a fortnight soon i dont expect to lose a lot before i go on hols, but i hope to lose a few pounds and manage to maintain my losses. dont want to think about whats gonna happen after hols as know i will need to ss+ to goal anyway, but dont want to plan too far ahead.

at the moment i am in a v comfortable place. i just wish i could see and know that. i still feel like i did when i started cd and cant see the difference in me. wish i could be happy here for a while, as when i started i used to dream about being in the 10's and now i am here i want to go lower. the one thing i will accept is that if i dont lose week to week i am ok with that, as long as i dont gain. maybe, i just need to get used to being here for a while, and enjoy it??

 

[leeds123]

hello again, its thursday and its early. despite nearly killing myself with head hunger and fantasies about food yesterday i did not cave. had a good day so am pleased i managed to do that. today is my last day ss this week as am going out tomorrow night so will ss+ with high protein meal. dont know if i will lose anything this week, but went on the scale this morning and it seemed to show a 1lb loss which i am pleased with. anything i lose from now till my hols is a bonus for me, just get a bit annoyed that now i am happy where i am i have an AI hol coming up!!! but nothing is gonna spoil my holiday, i will be totally off plan and hope to come back onto ss all the way then to goal of 10 stone. if i get there great, if not then thats ok. fingers crossed i get through today. have a crazy day at work and had a shake at 7am, my next one is at 5pm as have forgotten my shakes and then i will have one at 8pm. not too bad, gonna try to drink 3 litres today....

 

[Eternalflame]

Hi Leeds

You seem to be really focussed and its working too. Have you tried splitting your shakes and adding more water to them? That used to help for me.. Esp waking up early and having late nights. Good luck for today.x

 

[leeds123]

hi eternal, i would split, but my hunger is head hunger and only ever for food. nothing and no amount of hunger (head or physical) would make me want to have another shake. as it is i dread the 3 i already have! haha! thanks for the advice though, how you been? havent heard from you in a while. still doing cd/sw???

 

[leeds123]

hello. lost 1lb last week and ma happy wth that. oh, and confession time, on thursday night it looked like i might be 2lbs down and then i decided to eat. dont really know why, started cooking a big meal at 9pm, then took stock and decided to have some healthy scrambled eggs and one small piece of taost. so if i had not eaten i would maybe have lost 2lbs but am content with any loss right now.

yesterday was not on plan, and not on plan today as its just too fantastically gorg to be doing CD. will speak again tomorrow diary and begin week 3 of trying to lose the last 14lbs which now are only 8lbs!!!!

 

[*Shanny*]

Hi 8 lbs is a small amount now leeds.!

i am at goal now lost 4.5 lbs today.!!

it's your turn sooooooonn xxx

 

[leeds123]

SHANNY!!!! first the lovely weather and now your news!! im so happy for you.

did you ss this week?

well done girlie!

 

[*Shanny*]

leeds i had to ss for 5 days to shift it otherwise the fat wouldnt shift lol.

I feel the same weight but its off now i will have a limit of 10 stone, 10.5 to play with now.!

well done on your loss to.!! x

 

[leeds123]

OMG!!! just cannot get into the zone at all. this weather has really thrown me, and to add that i am on holiday in 4 weeks just really affects my motivation!!

am on my first shake today, alreasy had 2 litres of water thanks to the weather and am hoping to be good. however, have already nibbled today and went to BBQ yesterday but the heat was too much and i only had one burger with nothing else.

I really hope i can pull it back this week, but my mood is telling me its gonna be a struggle! watch this space...............