day 50 - shanny thanks for all your help. I have read and re-read your posts and they have helped me loads.
On fri, after my meal i read loads of encouraging posts and sat down and downed 2 litres of water in the evening. I am not kidding but all the 3lbs i gained from eating the daal and naan disappeared and i woke up on sat having maintained my 1lbs loss for the week! hurrah! I know that if i didnt have the meal i may have lost another pound but at least i didnt gain! I had the week from hell and am proud that i managed to pull back from total disaster. sometimes its nice to give ourselves a pat on the back and we have to remember that.
So, moving into week 8 and i am 19lbs down. This week WILL be a good loss week, i am determined. I am aiming for a 3lbs loss this week and NO BLIPS. I am so proud also to be on day 50!! and week 8..... its been hard, but its been a lifechanger for me. 8 weeks ago i was fat and my baby was over the newborn phase andi was dreading going back to work. Now, i can easily fit into to my work clothes and feel like i did before i had the baby. i feel like I AM BACK. its easy to get lost and lose yourself when you have a baby, and losing weight helps to recapture the old you. Thank you CD for giving me back some control and allowing me to find myself. this post sounds really crazy, i know, but i feel like a million times better and i am still a stone from goal. Even though i have blips i have never thought of giving up. the reservations about the diet i had in the early weeks, and the emotional rollercoater and beating myself up for even going onto CD are over. I am at peace with myself and with CD. I used to hate myself for getting to the stage where i needed to something as extreme as CD. Why cant you lose weight like normal people with healthy eating? I used to ask myself this all the time. But i am at over the moon with CD. It has helped me understand myself, it has given me time to think about my issues with food. I am not a big eater (maybe thats how i can have a day off each week and still lose?), i do not binge eat ever, i do not crave crap, and a lot of my weight was pregnancy related. But i think my prob is portion sizes and comfort eating. I am trying to control this now and am happy that despite having a crap week and feeling low i have managed to get to day 50 and am actually RARING to get on with CD and lose this week. I am one shake and one litre down already and can feel my goal within my grasp. A few more pounds and i will be able to visualise myself at goal and I just need to persevere to get there.... thanks to all who helped me last week. Shanny - you are a godsend. Becca are you still around, and ok? And everyone on the main forum - thanks.
To those who read this, i hope i can show that everyone's journey is different and even if you think you cannot carry on, believe me - YOU CAN.
Keep up the good job!
