what is it that you are doing? and what things are avaliable to have while you are out Anika???
Rach, you should let your hair down for the weekend, have a little of what you fancy, esp when you have so much going on, your family does come first (most of the time... but remember sometimes you come first too!!) and just relax the reins a little, deal with a gain if you have one, and then get back into it next week.. no one is going to judge you by letting yourself relax....
hope your little one is ok....