My SW diary, by Bess.

[Bess]

Thankyou so much Guys, but it's all down to you and the support and encouragment I've found here.

A lovely day out with OH, this is getting to be a very welcome new habit! We shared a slice of chocolate fudge cake and ice cream with a cup of tea, it was lovely, I've guessed the syns at 8 which I think is an overestimation, but it's wonderful that I now feel so much more aware of eating............well, mindfully. Much more practise needed of course, but at last and for the first time, I can see the path ahead.

B: Cheese omelette, nettles and quark.

L: One Staffordshire oatcake, very little cheese, tomato and salad.

1/2 a piece of choc fudge cake and ice cream (8 syns)

Fish sticks, 1.5 red wine (9 syns) - oops, 17 syns.

S: Will be (still working) grilled chicken, new potatoes, salad, muller light. SW bar and coffee.

At this point I replied to Gail when she'd slipped up along the lines of, 'Don't worry, we are only human.' I was frustrated at a work thing and time wasted and for some stupid reason ate 2 small crunchies, another glass of wine and a hot choc drink. An extra 16 syns. Stupid me. Why did I do that? Grrr. A total of 33 syns - stupid woman.

 

[julesm]

Food sounds yummy Bess! Very nice and romantic sharing a bit of yummy choc cake with the oh!

 

[Bess]

Someone needs a smack, see 2 posts up ^ .

B: A banana, scrambled egg with a little smoked salmon and parsley.

Fish sticks. 1 SW bar (1/2 HexB)

L: 2 Ryvita, (1/2 HexB) quark, fish sticks, gherkins, apple.

Muller light. Grapes.

S: Chicken, roast potatoes, (Olive oil=Hex A)carrots, peas, broad beans, sweet corn. Thin gravy. (3 syns) Red wine (9 syns) Bag crisps (5 syns). Oh flippin' 'eck - 17 syns - again, why didn't I realise?

Feel I've lost the plot a bit today, I have eaten loads but am sure this list is right.

Good to write it down I think. Just tea or coffee later then. Busy day tomorrow, out all day from very early, will concentrate better on what to chose to eat. Feel sad now.

 

[Chelsea Lou]

Someone needs a smack, see 2 posts up ^ .

B: A banana, scrambled egg with a little smoked salmon and parsley.

just a little one though Bess, cos you have been doing so well and spending some quality time with your OH is sooooooo worth a little blip. No drama as you can reel that in over the coming days. Look at WHAT KATY DID.......pun intended, despite her blip. xxx

 

[Katycakes]

Hug for Bess. We ARE only human y'know and that blip is not the end of the world if you take the 33 syns as part of the 105 or 102 or whatever you are allowed over a whole week. If you weren't doing SW, I bet it could have been much worse... this at least gives us a framework to work with.

I didn't have much sleep last night and had my Hifi bar pretty much right after breakfast at 6-ish, so have had a long & hungry morning! Making good choices is something it will take a while to learn, and there will be occasional derailments... but you're fine, Bess. Promise.

xxx

 

[gl12282]

Great post Katycakes. I completely agree. We are all human (even me and I thought at one point I'd cracked it ). What is important is not the beating yourself up, nor what you did but how you respond to it and what you do afterwards. So dust yourself off, be proud of being here and what you've done so far and have a good SW friendly (including some syns) day. Hugs from me too.

Gail x

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[julesm]

I agree bess, you can come back from this, you've done so well xxxx

 

[Bess]

No so clever now.

B: 5.30am ? Omelette, smoked salmon.

L: Jacket potato, tiny amount grated cheese, 2 quorn sausages.

Apple. 1 slice of frangipane and plum tart . In cafe with family, oh dear.

S: Cous cous, stir fried veg, tiny grated low fat cheese, 2 1/2 glasses wine, more cheese. SW bar. Syns?? 25?

I feel it is all slipping away from me.....so cross with myself. I'll try again tomorrow, frightened at Easter coming, family and friends all home, party time......panicking that I am really hopeless - sorry.

I now realise that there is such a fine line between eating sensibly to lose weight and eating too much and putting it on. SW food is the kind we have always eaten, but the extra's are my downfall.....

 

[gl12282]

Hi Bess,

I know exactly how you feel. I am finding things a little difficult at the moment too (not helped by my impending 'gourmet' weekend and the fact that this morning (BEFORE the weekend starts) I am 4lb up from my weigh in weight on Sunday - eeek), however this plan is about building up eating habits for life. It is going to be difficult at times. I have 20 or 30 years of (mostly) bad habits and those don't go overnight. Even after doing this for 8 months, it's still not always easy. However when I first started my diary (after being on SW for about 3-4 months I think), I felt like I was walking a tightrope and any little thing would throw me off track (potentially completely off track). I don't feel that now but not totally confidently yet. A few weeks ago, I thought I had cracked it but now I don't feel quite so confident but I still feel a bit more confident than I did 3 or 4 months ago.

So, you are not alone and you WILL have wobbles. Is there anything that you could have done to avoid some of what happened today ? If so, could you plan a bit better next time ? I find this really helps. If not (and sometimes for me, I just accept that I wouldn't do things differently) and it was worth it, then accept that it's the right thing and enjoy it. That's not easy to do because we are programmed to feel guilty about eating 'naughty' things but sometimes that's just how things are. Sometimes for me to say no is not worth it (I would feel deprived, resentful etc), other times it is.

So, big hugs Bess. You are making progress, you WILL have ups and downs. We will be here through thick and thin ('scuse the pun !). You CAN do this but it won't always be downhill progress. More massive big hugs for what will undoubtedly be a difficult weekend (no matter what I say )

Gail x

 

[Katycakes]

Bess... you are not slipping, not allowed, you just had a kind of 'synful' day! I was way over yesterday as well, spent goodness knows how many on a horrible dry scone with butter (thinking it was the healthy choice) when I could have had something nice for the same syns. So at least you ENJOYED those syns.

Easter is a tough weekend I know, hard to be careful when others are in celebration mood. Just keep the SW framework in mind. Gail's advice is so spot on I can't add to it, except to say keep posting food as it helps to know you have to do that, and it does help to know what it all added up to. We will all have ups and downs, but we are all serious about this and we'll keep on going. For me, it helps to think, well, if I don't do this it would be back to CD, no food at all, would I want that? NOOOO!!! It helps me resist a grated cheese topping and have a low fat cottage cheese one instead, that kind of thing.

Hugs for Bess & Gail, for all of us really because here comes the Easter weekend and it's going to test us. Hang on to your hats!

xxx

 

[herewego]

Oh Bess - I agree with what Gail said. Very wise words indeed! I can't really add to them other than to reassure you that you will get through this if you just breathe . Don't worry about the weekend - plan for it!

Must go - the family is in the car waiting for me! Hugs!!

 

[Bess]

Thankyou Gail, Katy and Alli, very much.

Gail, you make this road so much easier for me you know, because you have tramped it for longer. The things you tell me make me feel so much better and strengthen my resolve to concentrate more. It's so easy to feel hopeless when it seems that everyone except me has it cracked and I suppose that most of us have low self esteem about weight, so I find it only takes a little slip to make me feel bad.

I'll shape up now and get on with it. Many, many thanks.

Alli, I hope you are going somewhere fun? And Gail, have a great gourmet weekend. Katy, wise advice, to keep posting food so here's today's so far.
Thanks for all the hugs, much appreciated! xx

B: Sliced banana, topped with FF yoghurt, grated apple and a crumbled SW hi fi bar (HexB) - eaten in the sunshine so it tasted better!

L: Cous cous, tuna and sweetcorn salad,1 pickled egg with light mayo. Apple. Muller light.

Low fat cheese (Hex A)

1.5 glasses of red wine (9 syns), crisps (5) = 14 syns. Because I promised not to mess up, so I can't.

S: Cod loin, new potatoes, cabbage.

 

[Bess]

B: Banana, yoghurt.

L: Cold new potatoes, frittata, gherkins, apple.

Chocolate cakey thing with my mum, when we took her out for tea, she insisted that I ate something and I was happy to do so. No regrets, no idea of syns but it really doesn't matter. This weekend might be a bit lax, but today I can cope happily with that. I don't feel out of control any more, thank goodness.

Very weak gin and slimline tonic with ice and lemon - yum!

S: Home made beef burgers with onion and sage. Jacket potatoes, salad, salsa, all free or superfree.

DD2 has made a SW orange cake, may have a slice of that later with a cup of tea.

Much calmer today thankfully.

 

[Katycakes]

No peeking over that cliff-edge today, OK? Rain here. Not fair!

xxx

 

[Bess]

No peeking over that cliff-edge today, OK? Rain here. Not fair!

xxx

No, thanks to you I'm keeping far away!
Should I tell you that we have glorious sunshine, it's so hot and we've been for a lovely ride/walk through the bluebell woods, collecting beech branches for our Easter tree?.......Probably not! xx

 

[*Shanny*]

Morning Bess.. happy Easter x

 

[herewego]

Hope you are having a great weeken Bess!

 

[Katycakes]

No 'weeken' -ing allowed on this thread!

xxx

 

[herewego]

No 'weeken' -ing allowed on this thread!

xxx

weekenD

 

[Bess]

Right, well a line drawn under yesterday is best I feel. . So here it is:-

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Monday:

One tiny creme egg. (YUK!) Syns? 2 I think, not worth it.

B: Bacon, eggs, sausage, mushrooms.

L: Cold sausage, cottage cheese, banana, apple Muller light rice.

Baby bel light.
SW bar (HexB)
Gin and tonic. (4 syns)

S: Shepherd's Pie, peas. (Low fat cheese on the pie, HexA) 1 glass red wine. (6 syns)

12 syns in all.