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I blew it too girls!!
I think there must have been something in the air this weekend!
I was feeling a bit low yesterday and disappointed in myself for little blip on saturday, so wasn't in the best frame of mind when I got to the folks for dinner. My mood deteriorated further when I saw the spread on the table. As I had asked for a chicken salad Mom decided to do salad for everyone rather than a roast.
Now, that may sound innocent enough but my Moms salad isn't like the average one. Laid out buffet style on the table was roast chicken, chicken satay sticks, spicy king prawn skewers, ham, grated cheese, pork pie, boiled eggs, sausage rolls, potato salad, pasta salad, loads of lovely bread etc etc - oh and not forgetting a bit of lettuce, tomato and onion!
Then my brother rang and said him and his family couldn't make it so there was all this food and just my folks, OH, DD and ME to eat it! Mom said I'd have to take some of it home for OH and DD lunches this week. I said I couldn't as I'd be too scared that I'd eat it!
I managed to get through lunch with just 175g of chicken, salad leaves, a bite of a king prawn and 4 crisps! Was quite proud of self considering the temptations on offer. I went into the other room and it felt like there was some kind of magnetic force dragging me into the kitchen! It was awful - I couldn't even concentrate on a simple conversation for thinking about it. Had to put all my energy and concentration into the war going on in my head!
I decided to head off home a little earlier than normal to get away from the temptation - only for Mom to produce tubs full of the leftover food as she couldn't bare it to go to waste! I could have cried (and was a bit mad too!).
I was moaning about it on the way home, OH said 'we'll give it to the dog as soon as we get in then if it's going to be that much of a problem'.
This is where it went pear shaped! It looked SO nice when I was putting it all into Roxy's bowl - before I knew it I'd eaten a bit of pork pie pastry, 2 spoonfuls of potato salad, 2 chicken goujons and a bit of boiled egg! In the end I just put it all outside in my moms tupperware. She'd go bonkers if she knew!
The damage was done though - CB kept telling me that I might as well have the bowl of cereal I'd been craving for a fortnight now that I'd blown it, and as soon as OH announced he was going up to the garage to fix something that's exactly what I did. A bowl of special K, a piece of toast and a blueberry muffin later I went up to bed in tears.
I get SO angry with myself about this inability to limit food! Why can I SS with no problems at all but not go for more than 6 days on the 790 without turning it into the 2790??
I know that as my binges go - this was a tiny one. I didn't eat until I felt ill, I could physically have fit a lot more in and don't usually stop until I can't. I don't have 'the morning after' lethargy that usually follows one (but do feel quite bloated). I am trying to look on these positives to perk myself up - but the fact I did it in the first place is really upsetting me :cry:
What's making me even more gutted is that it's my weigh in tonight so I have no chance to get off what I'll have put on. I know that it will be mostly water/glycogen but all the same it's going to be really demotivating to see it on the scales.
Why couldn't I have just held out for another measly 24 hours?!
I've already polished off 1.5 litres water thismorning and will carry on glugging until about 5 (to give myself chance to wee it out before my weigh in!) I should manage 4.5 litres by then so am hoping this will flush some of the damage out. I usually show ridiculously big gains very quickly after these episodes - thankfully once back to SSing they do go quite quickly too - but that isn't going to comfort me when I get on the scales tonight!
Apologies for the long whingy post but I had to get it off my chest.
Tracie - hope you enjoyed your weekend away and managed to put the rest of us to shame by staying on the straight and narrow!
Good luck to all for getting back on the wagon today!
xxx
