Good Morning, a quick update. Being uber-hormonal, I had a bad weekend. I thought my weight loss from last week would see me through this but it didn't and here I am feeling rather low. I ended up having a proper binge weekend inclusive of the sleepless nausea filled nights. Today I feel suitably wrecked and bleary eyed, no energy and so so grumpy. But what I find the very hardest is to cope with those feelings of guilt. I know what's done is done and I can put things right again. But there is something in my head, to do with how I view myself that makes me feel like I have undone every good thing and every success. I know in my head it's not true but I actually feel bigger today. I keep telling myself in my head "you're 12 stone something now, you've got there, you can get further than that" but my brain doesn't really seem to believe it still.
I haven't been terribly involved in anyone's diaries and for that i am very sorry, it has always helped me a lot keeping track of others. Things have been so manic in my life that I feel I have barely had time to think. Maybe that's part of the problem, maybe I need to try and make a bit more room for assisting others.
I'm trying to detox a little today by sticking with really fresh plain foods and lots and lots of water. Hopefully in a few days' time I'll be feeling my strong willed relatively confident self again.