Evening all...
It's absolutely bucketing rain here... think it's the winter in Dublin
Rose I'm afraid you won't be knitting anything for Baby Me's just yet... though I plan on being a mini version of me soon so if you can manage a mini dress for mini me to wear at Christmas, then fire away!
I've totally resisted cravings... been so well behaved today, though mind you, I am in bed already hiding from the kitchen!!
Actually even raiding the kitchen would only yield fruit or a fat free yogurt... no trace of bad food in my kitchen... if it's not there, I can't eat it!
I realised today that I seem to have a lot more disposable income lately... Reason:
I used to do grocery shopping on a Sunday, buy all types of sweets, cakes, and unhealthy stuff.... then every day after work, on my way home at lunch time I'd stop off in the shop and buy Lucozade (aka liquid sugar), maybe a hot chicken roll stuffed with cheese and mayo, wedges, a doughnut for dessert and maybe 2/3 bars of chocolate. Once I'd come home, I'd eat and eat and eat even when I was full
In the evening, I'd think... oh it's dinner time and cook something awful like a pizza or creamy pasta even though I wasn't hungry.
I probably spent about €40 a week on take aways too
Sometimes, Domino's would have a special buy one get one free offer... I'd get a pizza and still take the free one, even though I obviously didn't need it.. I'd have garlic bread and a dessert with it! Sometimes I'd eat the second pizza in the morning before work!
So no more wondering how I got so large
Writing that down actually shocked me... I've never thought about it like that, it's pretty gross
Now I spend about €50 a week on groceries, all healthy, lean meats, fish, fruit, veg and don't go into any shops during the week to buy 'bits and pieces'.. .so the temptation of hot deli counters etc is totally removed.
I can't wait to stop sweating under lights! Or thinking when I'm buying a top, will sweat patches show on my back if I walk 100m!
I read on a thread, (Rose's I think), about not looking like you're a certain weight... honestly my friends and family would be shocked if they knew my starting weight... I'm a funny shape, I'm 5ft 6 and always wear 4inch heels so look quite tall, I wear size 24 jeans (my legs were always my problem)... my legs don't look huge though cos they look longer from wearing heels. Tops wise, I can go into any high street store usually and get a nice size 16 top to fit...
I don't want that though, I want to go in, get a top, not worry about the size (I don't care if I'm a size 10/12/14/16, it's more important that I feel healthy) I don't want to have to wear a cardigan all the time cos I'm worried about my arms...I want to buy jeans in River Island, and major goal... wear a dress
once I feel healthier, I'll be more confident
I'm looking forward to the new hot healthy me
So anyway.... My diary for today (sorry for rambling, I'm killing time and avoiding grazing!)
Brekkie: homemade smoothie: mixed berries, orange, mango, apricot, 4/5 grapes, banana, tropical fruit juice
Lunch: photo below... mixed fruit, strawberries, kiwi, orange, grapes, apricot... yummy
Dinner a bowl of homemade veg soup (I've made so much, I think I'll open a soup kitchen for the homeless!)
Snack: fat free Muller yogurt
About 3l of water and I'm still sipping!
Gym 2500m on rower, 30 mins on cross trainer
Bring on next WI
