Ok........it's taken some courage but I am here again, with my tail between my legs..................
After a fab latter half of 2012 and feeling great for my birthday and trip to Prague, I have undone about half of my hard work......thankfully not all!
I have not been able to commit to CWP since Christmas and I don't know why. I'll have two days where I'm good and then I'll fall off the wagon and say 'Ah well, I'll start Monday now' ??!! Whats wrong with me!!!!!
I was supposed to be at goal by now. I feel upset that I have let myself down so badly. Instead of reading this diary to inspire me I have steadfastedly ignored this forum on my favourites and have not have the courage to admit my failure until now. I wish so much that I hadn't come off the plan for my birthday and for all those who warned me this would happen I apologise for thinking I could control it and I'm sorry that I have let down everyone that was reading my diary and motivated by my pics.
To make it up to you I am going to attack this diet again and I promise I will get back to where I was and finish this journey, albeit 3 months later than I should have.
The problem is; I have been reading the forum today and feel so motivated again but I am going to a hotel to stay with my friend tomorrow and we are supposed to be having bubbly and a meal (its included in price) and then Sunday I'm supposed to be going out for a meal with partner and his parents, for his mums mothers day. The obvious would be to start the diet on Monday, but as I have said before I need to start it whilst I'm feeling positive and ready.....and thats now.
Any advice? I can't get out of either-my friend is going through a divorce so this was supposed to be a 'fun' spa trip away for us and on mothers day we invited mother in law to go out for dinner as she normally spends it with partners brother and sister in law, but they just announced their separation and sister in law isn't really talking to mother in law so we thought we would make it a lovely day for her! Arghh!!!