Notlongnow - diary of a past self sabotager - no more though!

[notlongnow]

Hi so how do i join the team then ??

Whats the most you have lost in a month ? x

Just join in really, everybody is very welcoming, supportive & positive so it really does help - whether it's going well or badly! It has certainly stopped me nibbling the odd thing as I come on here instead but I know if I did have a blip they would help you to dust off, get back off and get back on track.

 

[notlongnow]

Hi so how do i join the team then ??

Whats the most you have lost in a month ? x

Ps its mainly 1 stone a month but the first week is normally bigger - which helps to keep you going at the start. Someone recently lost a stone in the first week!!!

 

[Zest for Life]

Have you ladies ever been shopping and caught sight if yourself in a mirror, but for a split second you don't realise it's you? Then you think oh it's a mirror, that's me, **** I look like that!!! It's just horrible, for that split second you just see a fat frumpy person looking at you but your actualy looking at yourself
Now that's a depressing start to a bank hol weekend, sorry xxx

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[notlongnow]

I'm convinced I have a fat person stalking me!!!!! It's not really me honestly! We don't have many full length mirrors in the house so it is a shock when I do look in one - I am "bottom heavy" shall we say so top half isn't too bad which is the bit I see in my mirrors at home so when I am confronted with the lower part I am quite shocked!!

 

[Rkmriddell]

Have you ladies ever been shopping and caught sight if yourself in a mirror, but for a split second you don't realise it's you? Then you think oh it's a mirror, that's me, **** I look like that!!! It's just horrible, for that split second you just see a fat frumpy person looking at you but your actualy looking at yourself
Now that's a depressing start to a bank hol weekend, sorry xxx

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Yep. Except I normally see it in photos. I think I'm in denial to my actual body maybe lol x

 

[notlongnow]

Have you ladies ever been shopping and caught sight if yourself in a mirror, but for a split second you don't realise it's you? Then you think oh it's a mirror, that's me, **** I look like that!!! It's just horrible, for that split second you just see a fat frumpy person looking at you but your actualy looking at yourself
Now that's a depressing start to a bank hol weekend, sorry xxx

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Ps not depressing as we changing it so laugh at it instead - stick with this & you will very happy with your reflection and for a while til you get used to it won't believe that one is you either!!!

 

[Zest for Life]

Ps not depressing as we changing it so laugh at it instead - stick with this & you will very happy with your reflection and for a while til you get used to it won't believe that one is you either!!!

Hope so

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[Rkmriddell]

Me too. I want the nice shock x

 

[WillpowerWoman]

Have you ladies ever been shopping and caught sight if yourself in a mirror, but for a split second you don't realise it's you? Then you think oh it's a mirror, that's me, **** I look like that!!! It's just horrible, for that split second you just see a fat frumpy person looking at you but your actualy looking at yourself
Now that's a depressing start to a bank hol weekend, sorry xxx

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Wait till u see a slim Shiney happy type person person in the mirror then realise it's u

 

[therealbbe]

I'm convinced I have a fat person stalking me!!!!! It's not really me honestly! We don't have many full length mirrors in the house so it is a shock when I do look in one - I am "bottom heavy" shall we say so top half isn't too bad which is the bit I see in my mirrors at home so when I am confronted with the lower part I am quite shocked!!

But the best part my gorgeous girlies it gives us the reminder of why we doing this because if we came off and scoffed that person would be a lot bigger than they are now!!! I for one am glad I have finally come to understand that big person in the mirror is ME!!!! Not for long but at the moment good coz I gonna kick her ass all the way to skinnyville "all aboard the nutty train the skinnyville" xxxxxxx

 

[notlongnow]

Yes you are right!

Day 20 nearly done & dusted for me - this last week seems to have gone really fast - am managing to be fine even when nothing really happening in the day which I am pleased about. Think I will find it harder week after next as will have very long days - one day I will have to leave home 4.30am and won't be back til about 2am the following morning - may have to get extras for that day. Anyway plenty of time before I have to cross that bridge.

Looking forward to Nordic walking in the morning. The voice, BGT and the bridge tonight - what an exciting Saturday night!!!

Hope everyone gave a good day too.

 

[WillpowerWoman]

Yes you are right!

Day 20 nearly done & dusted for me - this last week seems to have gone really fast - am managing to be fine even when nothing really happening in the day which I am pleased about. Think I will find it harder week after next as will have very long days - one day I will have to leave home 4.30am and won't be back til about 2am the following morning - may have to get extras for that day. Anyway plenty of time before I have to cross that bridge.

Looking forward to Nordic walking in the morning. The voice, BGT and the bridge tonight - what an exciting Saturday night!!!

Hope everyone gave a good day too.

Well after midnight u can gave one of your packs for the next day anyway?

 

[notlongnow]

Yes you are right and I have plenty of time til then anyway - need to not put ideas in my head about whether things will or won't be tricky.

One of my problem areas to work on is a) building things up as problems in my head before they happen - more often than not when it happens it's not as bad as I think it's going to be and I manage to deal with it.

Secondly dealing with keeping everything inside so that I am churning inside but a picture of calm on the outside! So my eating problems started at 13, firstly I stopped eating and was virtually (if not actually) anorexic. That then switched to bingeing and although until a few years ago I was never really overweight I was always on and off diets . On diets was completely focused and in the zone, off the diet was completely out of control eating. So rather than keeping it all inside I am working on sharing the load so hopefully lessening the need to use food as my crutch.

Anyway enough rambling ........

 

[WillpowerWoman]

Yes you are right and I have plenty of time til then anyway - need to not put ideas in my head about whether things will or won't be tricky.

One of my problem areas to work on is a) building things up as problems in my head before they happen - more often than not when it happens it's not as bad as I think it's going to be and I manage to deal with it.

Secondly dealing with keeping everything inside so that I am churning inside but a picture of calm on the outside! Comes from having to deal with abuse whilst I was at boarding school age 11 and just having to get in with it - my parents realised I was unhappy and so moved me to another boarding school but I couldn't say what had been happening - only last year has that come out. So my eating problems started at 13, firstly I stopped eating and was virtually (if not actually) anorexic. That then switched to bingeing and although until a few years ago I was never really overweight I was always on and off diets . On diets was completely focused and in the zone, off the diet was completely out of control eating. So rather than keeping it all inside I am working on sharing the load so hopefully lessening the need to use food as my crutch.

Anyway enough rambling ........

Although I have not been through what you have I must admit I eat instead off feeling alot a way of dealing with stress boredom tiredness every emotion really except extreme stress I am not hungry then.

I also need to learn not to make mountains out of molehills.

 

[notlongnow]

I think we probably all do to some extent - first step is recognising it so think we doing ok.

 

[Zest for Life]

Morning x

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[Vjdisme]

Morning x

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Morning ! x

 

[notlongnow]

Morning everyone - day 21 for me - last food 3weeks ago - yay!!

Just done a Nordic walk which was great / bluebells everyday and the rain held off so was very nice! Had my shake before to give me a bit of energy but might struggle later as I normally have the first one much later - as before I tell myself if necc I can have an extra one !!!

Hope everyone is good today - its nice waking up clear headed not a hangover in sight!!!!

 

[Vjdisme]

Morning everyone - day 21 for me - last food 3weeks ago - yay!!

Just done a Nordic walk which was great / bluebells everyday and the rain held off so was very nice! Had my shake before to give me a bit of energy but might struggle later as I normally have the first one much later - as before I tell myself if necc I can have an extra one !!!

Hope everyone is good today - its nice waking up clear headed not a hangover in sight!!!!

Well done getting to day 21 that's great going walk sounds lovely ! X

 

[notlongnow]

So have cone on here as a distraction - am making caramelised onion & bacon tart & it is testing me to the limit. Grating gruyere I could so easily have popped a little bit in my mouth. (but didnt).

Should have had my shake before starting but want to sit down with the kids when they eat as hubby not back til later. So trusty diary/Cd friends I have turned to you - as ever not disappointed as you are all here!

Phew think the worst has passed!!