Its so hard, I often think shall I go to the doctor and see if there is any counselling but they often dont believe that fat people have eating disorders. maybe search for a clinic nearby? Im going to try really hard once more and just re-train myself, its all habits and behaviour, it needs to be practiced -like many things in life.
maybe set targets and perhaps have one treat a month? I plan to treat myself to a meal out after my first month, and Im going to get a tattoo designed for my thigh, which until I have sexy non flabby thighs I wont be able to get done! its just a little bit different to trying to squash into a size 10 or 8 dress, as I can pretend I look as nice in a bigger size, but very specific aims.
But if you know you might come off track, plan days off once a month or so, they might set you back a little but if you promise youre straight back on it might help keep you going.