Hello there,
just had a wee nosy through your diary and saw your lovely piggies. I have 3 boars of my own (Sputnik - nearly 2, Spooky - 5 and Mogwai - about 10 months).
I did have a fourth called Nebula who sadly passed away unexpectedly a few days after Christmas. I was in pieces. He wasn't even 2 years old, the vet thinks it was a heart defect. He looked sort of like Zambi actually
. If he does need to be put to sleep I would have thought you could be there too! Very strange...
I also suffer anxiety and panic attacks so know how hard it can be. *hugs*
Anyway, I hope life's extra stresses aren't getting you down too much!