thanks girls, support means so much, and hi mishi nice to see u
im glad quite a few people are the same as me, sometimes i feel like im absolutely nuts, see yesterday, i was going to do slimming world, and just because i knew i could eat *so and so food* in abundance it completely knocked me off my stride, i went into the kitchen 4 times, once to put the oven on for super noodles, didnt really want them, second time was to make some sw chips and 3rd was to get more fruit, fact was, i wasnt actually hungry, i just couldnt get food out of my head because i knew i could HAVE it. in the end i didnt know what to have because there was that much choice so i ended up having everything i could get my hands on, including 'un' free food.
was really quite pathetic, for days iv just felt so bloated, the ironic thing is that im quite light at the moment, im 11st 2lbs and when i came off cd i was 10st 13lbs, so even though im bloated i probably havent gained any weight so to speak.
i feel in limbo and that doesnt help me, i know deep down its ww or CD, but both such a different way to lose the weight, one quick, and mind torturing yet with such euphoria mixed in, it really does send my hormones into over drive, and the other is very enjoyable just far slower, and i get the euphoria from enjoying food.
either way today is a new day and its not going to involve too much food, im sick of it, im bloated and i have a over hang.
on the plus side, iv lost almost 28lbs since november, i have two beautiful little girls, who, when i look at them, completely make me forget about anything, fat, size 16's and mucky kebabs, and a man who loves me whatever i look like.
today is going to be a good day
hope i didnt drag anyone down with my whinging its just easy to get it out on here xxx