So today I have had a visit from the midwife who was lovely and very sympathetic. She wasn't sure if she could help but did put my mind at rest about a couple of things I was worried about and suggested arranging a consultant appt to see if could referred for another scan on mental health grounds.
Anyway - to cut a very long story short I now have a scan on tues! God knows how they managed that but I'm not arguing

I felt like a weight was off my shoulders as soon as I got the phone call. Just so relieved that now I can see baby post 12 weeks and hopefully everything will be ok and I'll have confidence then that we can make it through to the end together. I'm also seeing a psychiatrist at the mother and baby unit on Friday to look at ways of managing my anxiety so it doesn't become something more sinister as they are worried about how I'll cope at the moment for the next six months but especially after the birth. Never realised what a trigger pregnancy could be for mental health issues, there's a lot written about post natal depression but less about pre natal depression and it's an important subject I think! xxx