Sorry guys for still not checking up on you all. My older brother is in hospital. I'm very close to my younger brother, he's my best friend but not so close to my older brother. But I'm still upset.
He's morbidly obese, diabetic, depressed, has mental health problems. He's 30 this year and it's hitting him hard he's never had a partner or job etc. anyway he needs an operation on his eyes as his sight is going, he can't have the operation as his diabetes is so out of control. He refuses to see a doctor. Hasn't seen one in 2 years, as he's scared he'll be made to go to hospital.
Anyway his friend rang my mum today and said he's gone crazy. Calling his friend dad, thinking it's Christmas, my mum went to his house and called an ambulance. So not sure exactly what is wrong. They are doing tests. Could have been a mini stroke.
My mum is just so happy that he's in hospital, as she knows he needs help and hasn't been able to help him herself. I know he told me he wants to die, and I dunno....I'm maybe feeling guilty myself. I have never really been able to support or get close to him. But I do think it is because he locks me out. He said he hates me because I have a job, married, own a house etc and I dunno....I know it's not my fault but I think I could have done more to help.
Anyway I think I just needed to write this down tbh. Maybe it will help.
Hope your all well.