Today's gone well so far, had two packs and will soon have a soup and then a very early night. I have really struggled with hunger today which is no surprise after eating quite a lot over the last few days, my stomach obviously got used to the bigger portions. For a while, when I got hungry mid morning only two hours after my porridge, I felt a bit sorry for myself, quite deprived.
But I told myself off for that. I need a clean run for a while, Exante has to become a habit again or it will be so hard to keep re-starting and with no real results either.
A bit like starting to exercise and getting through the first few days of acheyness, only to stop and having to go through it again and again. I want Exante to become second nature again. I was there before and it felt good. It wasn't always easy but I think a big mistake I have made in the past is to almost begrudge people eating normal food that I abstain from at the moment. It's not about anybody else. It's just about me. I need to remind myself constantly what I truly want.