Russiandoll - Wardrobe check! 7th July

[Isis]

Hi Barb - so lovely to see you!!!
I'm sorry to hear about your dear Dad - my deepest condolences x

I'm over the first week and have to confess that it wasn't truly SS but more SS+. The good news is that I lost 9lb in week one which I'm chuffed with. Two more lbs and I drop into the stone bracket below which is always a psychological boost.

I think I'll stick to the 'plus' bit as I can crunch on some celery and nibble on chicken (and even tried some crayfish tails today) - it appeals to my grazing nature and seems to work for me.

Tomorrow is my last day at work then it's half term ... yayy!! ... a whole week away from 9Z3 and 8Y4. Bliss!!

Onto week 2

9lbs is a fantastic loss RD, well done girl!!! Enjoy the half term week hun xxx

 

[Russiandoll]

Thanks guys ...
Barb, losing your dad is one of those things that you never get over ... you just gradually learn to incoporate it into your life. There will be both good days and bad but slowly, the good days will outnumber the bad until you feel you can face life's challenges again. I still don't know how I got through my third year at Uni - I think it was mainly because I knew my dad would have been so proud. And also very disappointed if I gave up. My graduation day was bitter sweet as I so wanted my dad to be there. I'm sure he was with me in spirit though.

So here I am two years on ... a Bachelors degree under my belt and about to take on the challenge of doing a Masters. I know that would've had my dad puffing his chest up in pride.

As for the weight thing ... my dad never once made a negative comment about my weight - even when I was at my heaviest. But I feel that for me to be the best I can I need to shed some of this weight, step out of my fat prison and really live my life to its fullest. My dad wouldn't want me to be so burdened or risk my health in this way. His life was cruelly cut short - he'd want me to have my full quota!

So there's my motivation. It isn't a roaring announcement but a gentle determination. I'm doing this for me - and in memory of my dear dad.

 

[Barb]

Debs, he would have been so proud and i am sure your Mum is chuffed to bits with you. Doing your Masters is amazing, just shows how far you can push yourself, doesn't it?
I think you are right, the motivation has to be right and the health side is so much more important than anything else. That is the means to success - a valid reason that makes total sense.

Like yours, my Dad was never judgemental about my weight, he was always on the chunky side himself and still lived to a good age (86), but he knew I wanted to be slimmer, all my life really, so I know he would be glad if eventually i manage to sort myself out and get back into the right frame of mind.

I think for now, I will just watch you, admiringly of course, waiting for some strength to turn up that i can take advantage of. I just don't want yet another false start and more failure upon failure. When the time is right, I 'll know I think.

With lots of love and thanks for the understanding,

 

[Russiandoll]

Just checking in to say that, so far, everything seems to be ok. I'm managing fine with the Cambridge 'plus' approach although it's weigh in day tomorrow so I guess exactly how well I'm managing will be revealed then. It'd be nice to drop into the stone bracket below and to do that I'd need to lose 2lb - so fingers crossed! Week 2 result tomorrow after 6.45

 

[minusfour]

Good luck!

 

[HelenG]

Good luck with the WI!

 

[Russiandoll]

Well, had my 2nd weigh in and the result is .... drum roll .... 5lb!!

So that's exactly a stone in 2 weeks - I am over the moon!! And bearing in mind I'm nibbling on chicken and celery as well ... it's awesome!

That means I'm around a fifth of the way to goal! I know things will slow down considerably now but this is the boost I needed. Happy days!!

 

[Pink!]

A stone in two weeks? That's amazing! I may have to look in to this Cambridge diet thing.
Congrats on the stone!

 

[minusfour]

That's fantastic! Enjoy your success! Can you feel any difference in your body?

 

[Eclipse]

OMG Debs, how on earth did I manage to miss your return, I am so sorry hun x x

Well done on your weight loss, a stone in two weeks is absolutely fabulous x x

I too am back on it (but only SS till next Friday, then two packs plus a meal as we are off to Spain) Will add this thread to my list now x x

 

[Russiandoll]

Hi Cheryl - great to see you back on here

Minusfour ... I can't feel a huge difference at the moment which isn't unexpected as I have a lot to lose. I still want to lose about another 5st (although according to my BMI I 'need' to lose around another 7st but I don't want to go that low).

I've found in the past on one of my yo-yo experiences that it takes a couple of stones at least before anyone notices or I feel any real difference or my clothes feel a lot looser.

I suppose the waistbands on my work trousers feel a little more comfortable and I don't puff quite as much encountering the numerous flights of stairs in the school where I work. I'm looking forward to getting the 2nd stone out of the way and people actually start noticing. Until then, I just have to persevere knowing that, soon, I'll start reaping the rewards.

Today I'm feeling mega hungry and 'nibbly'. But I know my period is due on Monday and that's why - it's the same every month ... so I know I have to fight the urge to pig out on carbs and apply a bit of self control.

I do not want that banana / lemon slice / bread roll / pasta salad ... honetly I don't!! :17729:

 

[sonkie]

Hiya hun......its so hard especially around TOTM......be strong....you can do it (when you B&Q it ).....xx

 

[Isis]

Hiya hun......its so hard especially around TOTM......be strong....you can do it (when you B&Q it ).....xx

lol at B&Q Sonks . Hang in there RD...you really can do this!!! xxx

 

[Russiandoll]

Thanks for the encouragement guys

I don't know why it seems more of a challenge this time when I have less to lose and 'know what I'm doing'. First time round in 2006 I had over 10st to lose but went at it 100% and made the most of my golden time. I lost the 10st ... then regained 5st and since then I've started, restarted and restarted restarts. I really did lose faith in myself and once again used my weak willpower around food to beat myself up with.

I really do have to stop this 'eat - guilt - eat' cycle. It's just too self destructive. There's no such thing as 'I couldn't stop myself' because clearly I CAN stop myself from putting food into my mouth. So maybe I need to stop thinking 'I can't stop myself' and 'I can't be trusted around food' and accept that everything I've ever eaten was by choice and I just need to make wiser choices in the future.

Let's face it, if I really, truly 'couldn't help myself' then there would be no choice element in it and I'd have nothing to feel guilty about - so why do I feel guilty whenever I over indulge in things I KNOW will scupper my efforts? It's because deep down inside i know I could have made a wiser choice. Time to take some personal responsibility and make conscious choices - good or bad those choices are all mine.

 

[minusfour]

Keep up the fight! I've done that regain/restart routine myself, and it really erodes your confidence, doesn't it! For me, the most important things to remember is a slip up doesn't have to mean the end of healthy eating, it can just be a once off. (Or every now and then off, as the case may be!)

 

[Pink!]

I agree with minusfour, everyone has their off days and hates themselves for it, but the important thing is to just get back on track the day after. If you still feel bad about your off day then just chuck an extra hour of exercise into your routine or something.
Best wishes! x

 

[Isis]

How's it going RD? xx

 

[Russiandoll]

Missed a week .... 'life' and the fact I gained 2lb last week meant I was too cheesed off to post. However, in my heart I knew it wasn't fat I'd gained as I certainly hadn't eated 7000 cals - it was TOTM though and I'm clearly prone to hormonal fluctuations.

So here I am a week after that blip and have lost 4lb (although 2 of it, of course, was reversing the gain last week). The good news is that I'm 16lb down overall after 4 weeks and I can't moan at that ... especially as I'm nibbling chicken and celery.

Month 2 here I come.

 

[Pink!]

Well done babes, you reversed the damage and that's the important thing. Hope things continue to look up

 

[Russiandoll]

Thanks Emz. It's a daily struggle I have to admit and all I can do is take it, literally, one day at a time.

I've actually bought myself a swimsuit off Ebay (new ... shades of blue with a little skirt bit at the front). Not sure I can muster the courage to wear it in public but I'm going to try. The problem is that not only do I have a weight problem but my legs are in a complete mess with veins. I don't think I've ever seen any as bad - even in people twice my size. My younger sister has terrible trouble too and she's only a size 14 and has never been very big. Maybe it's hereditary but that's little consolation when you have legs that look like a map of the inland waterways of Britain! It really does depress me though - every bit as much as the weight ... only there's absolutely nothing I can do about them!

I so want a body transplant!! :cry: