Friday 20th Jan - Day 11
Weighed myself this morning and was 15st 12
A VERY happy bunny to have finally cracked into the 15's
Feeling a lot more hungry lately, I think because my body is probably starting to burn the actual fat now so it's telling me to eat more strongly than it was before.
Plus I'm not feeling 100% today so have already had 2 boiled eggs, if needs be I'll have a WS/AAM day to get me through. Urgh I hate January bugs
Had a bit of a tiff with my other half last night over hula hoops of all things lol I was feeling crappy because of the bug or whatever I have, plus I've got a really sore back, feeling lightheaded and ongoing funny feeling in my ears, and to be honest I was being quite miserable and fed up and I wasn't great company so decided to take myself off to bed. Boyfriend came in about 15mins later and got into bed with 2 BAGS OF BEEF FLAVOUR HULA HOOPS omggggg well that was it lol Ended up picking up the packet he was eating and getting a good noseful of flavour, they smelt so good, I'll never know how I managed to not scoff the lot. Then said to him 'You really shouldn't eat this stuff around me, I came to bed to get away from food and to distract myself from feeling hungry, and you bring one of the things I'm craving to within 2 feet of me. I put up with you eating crisps and chocolate and takeaways while I'm being 100%, you don't have to do it right in front of me'. So he decided to have a strop and say 'Oh well I wont eat them then' and got a major sulk on, honestly I could have killed him for being so childish, was tempted to ram them down his throat!
Probably didn't help my mood that earlier on that day (while I was out at uni) his brother had came over and spotted a milkshake pack I had left out on the kitchen side, which lead to the two of them talking about my diet, with my boyfriend moaning about how I'd "cheated" already (by having a WS/AAM day on Tuesday) but that on the plus side I'd already lost 12 lbs. Then they were talking about how weird it will be when I'm skinny, which got them talking about whether or not I'll be left with saggy skin.
Now I don't mind them talking about the diet, but...I can't help but feel stupid that they both think I'm so weak-willed that I CHEATED already, which I didn't, if I had done I wouldn't care if they talked about it, but I think it takes the mick that the 2 of them (both around 6'3 and neither of them more than 13 stone, so healthy weight) seemed to be patronising me just because I had an AAM day, which I explained was to avoid the AAM WEEK. I'm probably being over-sensitive because I'm feeling a bit fed up because of the bug etc but I feel like they were both here laughing at the fat girl who can't last more than a few days on a diet, and who's going to be left with saggy skin because shes been such a pig fat pig for so long
Argh bit of a rant but it's what's in my head right now
How depressing. See this is where chocolate would help ha!