Sarah's SW Diary
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thefinalcountdown
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Thank you all so much, it really means a lot to know that I can come on here to talk about things and all you lovely people are here to listen 
I went over to my Grandparents again yesterday morning. The antibiotica weren't doing anything, so they've now put him on a second lot that are much stronger, and will attack anything that might be lurking around in him. He seemed far more settled, and he'd eaten a bowl of soup for lunch (my Grandma made a full dinner and pureed it into soup form) which she now has to feed him. My Grandma, the miricle that she is, insisted on feeding us all (my Aunt and Uncle were there too). She'd made meat pie for dinner, which obviously I can't eat, but she gave me a big plate of roasted veg, in loads of oil, and then a slice of treacle tart with ice-cream! I couldn't say no, she needs as much normality around her as possible at the moment. It wasn't half good! My Grandma makes the best treacle tart in the world :drool:
I had a turorial yesterday on drug calculations, and there's a new girl who's joined our group this year. Most of my group are lovely, but this new girl (who seems like the type who would've been one of the *****y popular girls at school) kept making comments about me being a geek because I knew all the answers and can understand the formulas for drug calcs without writing them down. It made me feel like I was back at school, being picked on for being the clever one. Just what I didn't need, what with everything else going on. Anyway, at the end of the tutorial, when everyone else had gone, my tutor asked me if I was alright. Of course, that was the wroong question to ask, and I dissolved into a blubbering mess! I'm not usually like that at all, so felt very silly. I've adapted very well to hiding my emotions and being the rock for everyone else, but she was lovely about it.
Anyway, come weigh in I got the shock of my life! I was hoping for maybe a 2lb loss, but got on the scales and I'd lost 4.5lb!!! You could've knocked me down with a feather! I got SOTW, and my stone award, which I thought would be at least another week away! I have to say, it really made my day!
I'm currently at my Dad's, my stepmum and I have worked out a rota for the week around our work schedules so there is always someone with him, and today is my day. I'm getting in some body magic running up and down the stairs every hour to refresh his ice packs! :8855:
The second date went well (I think) although he seems quite shy, which I'm not really used to! We've now been out twice, and still not even a kiss, although there was a bit of an awkward moment when I dropped him off on Tues night and he didn't seem sure what to do when he got out the car :8855:I'm not used to this dating malarky!
Anyway, I'm hungry now, so I'm off to find something for breakfast and to see if Dad needs anything, will post a food plan later xxx
I went over to my Grandparents again yesterday morning. The antibiotica weren't doing anything, so they've now put him on a second lot that are much stronger, and will attack anything that might be lurking around in him. He seemed far more settled, and he'd eaten a bowl of soup for lunch (my Grandma made a full dinner and pureed it into soup form) which she now has to feed him. My Grandma, the miricle that she is, insisted on feeding us all (my Aunt and Uncle were there too). She'd made meat pie for dinner, which obviously I can't eat, but she gave me a big plate of roasted veg, in loads of oil, and then a slice of treacle tart with ice-cream! I couldn't say no, she needs as much normality around her as possible at the moment. It wasn't half good! My Grandma makes the best treacle tart in the world :drool:
I had a turorial yesterday on drug calculations, and there's a new girl who's joined our group this year. Most of my group are lovely, but this new girl (who seems like the type who would've been one of the *****y popular girls at school) kept making comments about me being a geek because I knew all the answers and can understand the formulas for drug calcs without writing them down. It made me feel like I was back at school, being picked on for being the clever one. Just what I didn't need, what with everything else going on. Anyway, at the end of the tutorial, when everyone else had gone, my tutor asked me if I was alright. Of course, that was the wroong question to ask, and I dissolved into a blubbering mess! I'm not usually like that at all, so felt very silly. I've adapted very well to hiding my emotions and being the rock for everyone else, but she was lovely about it.
Anyway, come weigh in I got the shock of my life! I was hoping for maybe a 2lb loss, but got on the scales and I'd lost 4.5lb!!!
You could've knocked me down with a feather! I got SOTW, and my stone award, which I thought would be at least another week away! I have to say, it really made my day! I'm currently at my Dad's, my stepmum and I have worked out a rota for the week around our work schedules so there is always someone with him, and today is my day. I'm getting in some body magic running up and down the stairs every hour to refresh his ice packs! :8855:
The second date went well (I think) although he seems quite shy, which I'm not really used to! We've now been out twice, and still not even a kiss, although there was a bit of an awkward moment when I dropped him off on Tues night and he didn't seem sure what to do when he got out the car :8855:I'm not used to this dating malarky!
Anyway, I'm hungry now, so I'm off to find something for breakfast and to see if Dad needs anything, will post a food plan later xxx
Laura_carlburgess
Gold Member
thefinalcountdown said:Thank you all so much, it really means a lot to know that I can come on here to talk about things and all you lovely people are here to listen
I went over to my Grandparents again yesterday morning. The antibiotica weren't doing anything, so they've now put him on a second lot that are much stronger, and will attack anything that might be lurking around in him. He seemed far more settled, and he'd eaten a bowl of soup for lunch (my Grandma made a full dinner and pureed it into soup form) which she now has to feed him. My Grandma, the miricle that she is, insisted on feeding us all (my Aunt and Uncle were there too). She'd made meat pie for dinner, which obviously I can't eat, but she gave me a big plate of roasted veg, in loads of oil, and then a slice of treacle tart with ice-cream! I couldn't say no, she needs as much normality around her as possible at the moment. It wasn't half good! My Grandma makes the best treacle tart in the world :drool:
I had a turorial yesterday on drug calculations, and there's a new girl who's joined our group this year. Most of my group are lovely, but this new girl (who seems like the type who would've been one of the *****y popular girls at school) kept making comments about me being a geek because I knew all the answers and can understand the formulas for drug calcs without writing them down. It made me feel like I was back at school, being picked on for being the clever one. Just what I didn't need, what with everything else going on. Anyway, at the end of the tutorial, when everyone else had gone, my tutor asked me if I was alright. Of course, that was the wroong question to ask, and I dissolved into a blubbering mess! I'm not usually like that at all, so felt very silly. I've adapted very well to hiding my emotions and being the rock for everyone else, but she was lovely about it.
Anyway, come weigh in I got the shock of my life! I was hoping for maybe a 2lb loss, but got on the scales and I'd lost 4.5lb!!!
I'm currently at my Dad's, my stepmum and I have worked out a rota for the week around our work schedules so there is always someone with him, and today is my day. I'm getting in some body magic running up and down the stairs every hour to refresh his ice packs! :8855:
The second date went well (I think) although he seems quite shy, which I'm not really used to! We've now been out twice, and still not even a kiss, although there was a bit of an awkward moment when I dropped him off on Tues night and he didn't seem sure what to do when he got out the car :8855:I'm not used to this dating malarky!
Anyway, I'm hungry now, so I'm off to find something for breakfast and to see if Dad needs anything, will post a food plan later xxx
Omg congratulations on your 4.5lb loss and with your treacle tart and ice cream on top (very jealous this is one of my utter fav desserts
haha) Really sorry to hear about your day with the snooty girl... I was lucky at high school I coasted along and hot on with everybody meaning I didn't get picked on or I didn't pick on anybody else myself(which is an achievement for a welsh girl in an English school) I have never understood the need for school "food chain" as such as it's so stupid because school is a small part of your life...it doesn't mean you get any special treatments when you leave your just all equal...but some people don't evolve from school and just stuck in that pretence to make themselves feel special. So keep your chin up, brush it off and just remember your achievements and think stuff her...feel sorry for her, she's obviously quite self conscious and trying to make up for it in a *****y way.
I am glad your grandad is comfortable now and bless your grandma for purée his lunch for him.
Gosh I hate the dating part it's funny now looking back but when I started going out with my now husband I wouldn't eat in front of him anything that didn't involve a knife and fork so when I had a burger I would go sit in another room and eat it
haha now i don't care at all that's the least of what he gets to witness on a daily basis hahaha x
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Laura_carlburgess said:Omg congratulations on your 4.5lb loss and with your treacle tart and ice cream on top (very jealous this is one of my utter fav desserts
Really sorry to hear about your day with the snooty girl... I was lucky at high school I coasted along and hot on with everybody meaning I didn't get picked on or I didn't pick on anybody else myself(which is an achievement for a welsh girl in an English school) I have never understood the need for school "food chain" as such as it's so stupid because school is a small part of your life...it doesn't mean you get any special treatments when you leave your just all equal...but some people don't evolve from school and just stuck in that pretence to make themselves feel special. So keep your chin up, brush it off and just remember your achievements and think stuff her...feel sorry for her, she's obviously quite self conscious and trying to make up for it in a *****y way.
I am glad your grandad is comfortable now and bless your grandma for purée his lunch for him.
Gosh I hate the dating part it's funny now looking back but when I started going out with my now husband I wouldn't eat in front of him anything that didn't involve a knife and fork so when I had a burger I would go sit in another room and eat it
Thank you
Yeah, normally I jist ignore stuff like that, but what with everything else going on at the moment it got to me a bit. I was always picked on, whether it was for being geeky, going to folk festivals and stuff with my parents, or just generally being a bit weird.
I'm sitting with my Dad, and we've just had a phone call from my Aunt to say that my Grandpa is now worse than ever, he can't speak and is really struggling to breathe, so it could be any minute that he goes. I feel pretty helpless, like I should be there. There's not a lot that we could do if we went, and my Dad is still really sore, but I feel useless just sitting here!
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Right, here's what I've eaten so far today:
Breakfast
2 x Oatibix (HexB)
Semi-skimmed milk (HexA)
Honey (2.5 syns)
Lunch
Jacket potato (free)
Baked beans (free)
Brown sauce (1 syn)
Snacks
Grapes (free)
Apple (free)
Gherkins (free)
I'm still at my Dad's, feeling a bit useless. I'm hungry too, and there is nothing in his house that I can eat really that will be free, or even low syn. All I have is my SOTW bag, which is just full of apples, and I've already had one and don't fancy another. There's a lovely loaf of tiger bread in the kitchen, right next to the dish with the real butter in, and it's been calling to me all day. I've resisted so far, and decided it's not worth it, but the more hungry I get the harder it is to resist. I even made my Dad's lunch, which was a tiger bread sandwich, with crayfish tails and full fat dijon and dill mayo, and an afternoon snack of toasted tiger bread with real butter on and still managed to resist :drool:
Also, I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to have for tea. Haven't decided yet whether to eat here or go home. There's not a lot here for me to eat, and if I'm eating at home I need to stop at the shop on the way back. I don't know what to do!
Breakfast
2 x Oatibix (HexB)
Semi-skimmed milk (HexA)
Honey (2.5 syns)
Lunch
Jacket potato (free)
Baked beans (free)
Brown sauce (1 syn)
Snacks
Grapes (free)
Apple (free)
Gherkins (free)
I'm still at my Dad's, feeling a bit useless. I'm hungry too, and there is nothing in his house that I can eat really that will be free, or even low syn. All I have is my SOTW bag, which is just full of apples, and I've already had one and don't fancy another. There's a lovely loaf of tiger bread in the kitchen, right next to the dish with the real butter in, and it's been calling to me all day. I've resisted so far, and decided it's not worth it, but the more hungry I get the harder it is to resist. I even made my Dad's lunch, which was a tiger bread sandwich, with crayfish tails and full fat dijon and dill mayo, and an afternoon snack of toasted tiger bread with real butter on and still managed to resist :drool:
Also, I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to have for tea. Haven't decided yet whether to eat here or go home. There's not a lot here for me to eat, and if I'm eating at home I need to stop at the shop on the way back. I don't know what to do!
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tillymax
Gold Member
Awww hun :bighug:
I'm so sorry all this has happened at once.
That stupid girl needs a good slap but we're too polite to do that. Don't feel embarrassed about being clever cos you will have the last laugh. My son used to get called a geek and I used to say I'm sure Bill Gates had the same and he's a multi billionaire so stuff em
I know you felt silly for being upset in front of your lecturer but it will have done you good to get some of it off your chest with someone outside your family. They do need to be aware cos they'll notice your not your usual self.
If you eat crap don't feel guilty about it. You need to do whatever you have to do to get you through the next few days. Well done on your loss. I wonder if grandmas treacle tart had anything to do with it
Dating - it's a long time since I did that. Do you think you should just pounce on him - obviously in a very subtle acccidental type way :8855:
I'm so sorry all this has happened at once.
That stupid girl needs a good slap but we're too polite to do that. Don't feel embarrassed about being clever cos you will have the last laugh. My son used to get called a geek and I used to say I'm sure Bill Gates had the same and he's a multi billionaire so stuff em
I know you felt silly for being upset in front of your lecturer but it will have done you good to get some of it off your chest with someone outside your family. They do need to be aware cos they'll notice your not your usual self.
If you eat crap don't feel guilty about it. You need to do whatever you have to do to get you through the next few days. Well done on your loss. I wonder if grandmas treacle tart had anything to do with it
Dating - it's a long time since I did that. Do you think you should just pounce on him - obviously in a very subtle acccidental type way :8855:
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Ok, my Grandpa passed away yesterday afternoon. He was peaceful, and my Aunt and Uncle were there at the time. I took my Dad over and my other Uncle came from Oxford, so we were all there when he was taken away. My Grandma, the amazing woman she is, was devastated. They've only ever been apart for about 3 days at a time in the 61 years they've been married. She couldn't believe he'd gone.
Dinner last night was 2 fish fingers in a roll, and half a tin of spaghetti. I didn't really feel hungry, but my friend told me I had to eat and that's all I could find.
I still feel a bit numb today, I'm so worried about my Grandma. My Aunt and one of my Uncles stayed last night, so she's not on her own. I'm glad I don't start work until 1.
I have to say Tilly, that last comment of yours did make me chuckle I think if I pounced on the poor guy I'd squash him!
Dinner last night was 2 fish fingers in a roll, and half a tin of spaghetti. I didn't really feel hungry, but my friend told me I had to eat and that's all I could find.
I still feel a bit numb today, I'm so worried about my Grandma. My Aunt and one of my Uncles stayed last night, so she's not on her own. I'm glad I don't start work until 1.
I have to say Tilly, that last comment of yours did make me chuckle
I think if I pounced on the poor guy I'd squash him!
Laura_carlburgess
Gold Member
thefinalcountdown said:Ok, my Grandpa passed away yesterday afternoon. He was peaceful, and my Aunt and Uncle were there at the time. I took my Dad over and my other Uncle came from Oxford, so we were all there when he was taken away. My Grandma, the amazing woman she is, was devastated. They've only ever been apart for about 3 days at a time in the 61 years they've been married. She couldn't believe he'd gone.
Dinner last night was 2 fish fingers in a roll, and half a tin of spaghetti. I didn't really feel hungry, but my friend told me I had to eat and that's all I could find.
I still feel a bit numb today, I'm so worried about my Grandma. My Aunt and one of my Uncles stayed last night, so she's not on her own. I'm glad I don't start work until 1.
I have to say Tilly, that last comment of yours did make me chuckle
Aww Hun I am really sorry to hear about this and sending my condolence's to you, the rest of your family and mostly your grandma. I can only imagine what she's feeling like right now. At least he was at peace and that's all that matters.
Xxx
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Laura_carlburgess said:
Thanks. My Grandma is a miracle woman, when we got there she had made everyone omlettes, was making the beds for my Aunt and Uncle, and just kept saying she didn't know what to do. It really hit her when they took him away though, she had to leave the room, and was sobbing into my Uncle's arms like nothing I've ever heard, and feeling guilty because she hadn't done enough for him, and had she done the right thing. That, together with the vision of him being carried out is what keeps popping into my head at random moments.
I went to work today, my flatmate has gone away for the weekend and I didn't want to sit at home on my own all day. It did me good to be busy. I have loads to do tomorrow and am out in the evening, then working Sunday, so I'll be fine.
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Here's the food plan for today:
Breakfast
Wholemeal roll (HexB)
BBQ sauce (2 syns)
28g cheddar (HexA)
Apple (free)
Grapes (free)
Lunch
2 x meat free sausage (1 syn)
Instant mash (free)
Onion (free)
Gravy (2 syns)
Dinner
Jacket potato (free)
Baked beans (free)
28g cheddar (HexB)
Toffee mullerlight (free)
Snacks
Apple (free)
Toffee mullerlight (free)
Chocolate mini roll (6 syns)
Total: 11 syns
Just got in from work and had a shower, now chilling out with my candles lit, about to have my mini roll and toffee mullerlight and find something good on the telly. Oh, also just arranged for date number 3 - he's coming over on Sunday evening after I finish work.
Breakfast
Wholemeal roll (HexB)
BBQ sauce (2 syns)
28g cheddar (HexA)
Apple (free)
Grapes (free)
Lunch
2 x meat free sausage (1 syn)
Instant mash (free)
Onion (free)
Gravy (2 syns)
Dinner
Jacket potato (free)
Baked beans (free)
28g cheddar (HexB)
Toffee mullerlight (free)
Snacks
Apple (free)
Toffee mullerlight (free)
Chocolate mini roll (6 syns)
Total: 11 syns
Just got in from work and had a shower, now chilling out with my candles lit, about to have my mini roll and toffee mullerlight and find something good on the telly. Oh, also just arranged for date number 3 - he's coming over on Sunday evening after I finish work.
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thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
JackieN said:
Thanks Jackie xxx
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Here's today's food:
Breakfast
Wholemeal roll (HexB)
Tinned spaghetti (free)
Lunch
Jacket potato (free)
Mushy pea curry (free)
Low fat spread (4 syns)
Dinner
Wholewheat spaghetti (free)
56g cheddar (HexA, HexB)
Melon (free)
Snacks
Grapes (free)
Caramel Snack-a-Jacks (5 syns)
Total: 9 syns
Breakfast
Wholemeal roll (HexB)
Tinned spaghetti (free)
Lunch
Jacket potato (free)
Mushy pea curry (free)
Low fat spread (4 syns)
Dinner
Wholewheat spaghetti (free)
56g cheddar (HexA, HexB)
Melon (free)
Snacks
Grapes (free)
Caramel Snack-a-Jacks (5 syns)
Total: 9 syns
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Thanks That mushy pea curry is lush! Made it for the first time today.
I'm ok thanks, trying to keep busy but I feel absolutely shattered. Went to bed at about 11 last night, straight to sleep and slept till about 10 this morning! I'm going to the cinema with my best friend tonight, so that will be good.
I was just reading about your poorly neck, I hope it feels better soon. Have you tried putting a heat pack or hot water bottle on it? xxxx
That mushy pea curry is lush! Made it for the first time today.I'm ok thanks, trying to keep busy but I feel absolutely shattered. Went to bed at about 11 last night, straight to sleep and slept till about 10 this morning! I'm going to the cinema with my best friend tonight, so that will be good.
I was just reading about your poorly neck, I hope it feels better soon. Have you tried putting a heat pack or hot water bottle on it? xxxx
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
yep lived with my wheat pack on and its helped. I've reiki'd it. etc done some exercises its getting there
but still hurts and have a headache too, think all connected.
I really loved the mushypea curry in fact must put that on my list for this week. I am hoping to sit and plan my meals for the week later and tomorrow as convinced thats where I go wrong at the moment.
xxxxx
but still hurts and have a headache too, think all connected.
I really loved the mushypea curry in fact must put that on my list for this week. I am hoping to sit and plan my meals for the week later and tomorrow as convinced thats where I go wrong at the moment.
xxxxx
thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Yeah, the headache is probably caused by the neck problem. I love those heatpacks! I get a lot of joint pain due to hypermobility, and heatpacks are one of the few things that actually help. One of my friends does reiki and she's done sessions on me a couple of times, that really helps too. Did you do your training locally? I've always been interested in doing it.
I find it much easier to stick to plan if I know roughly what I'm having and when xxxx
I find it much easier to stick to plan if I know roughly what I'm having and when
xxxx
JackieN
One day at a time, one step at a time
I did sweetie but she moved but I am a reiki master have been since 2008 just don't use it ie as a job, but IF you ever wanted to do it I am sure we could sort something out. I've done a few reiki ones and twos over these few years for friends
reiki is fab. My hands get very hot at times just as good as a heat pad. I just love it just wish I had more time to use it I really do. I must learn to make time xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
have been since 2008 just don't use it ie as a job, but IF you ever wanted to do it I am sure we could sort something out. I've done a few reiki ones and twos over these few years for friends reiki is fab. My hands get very hot at times just as good as a heat pad. I just love it just wish I had more time to use it I really do. I must learn to make time
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thefinalcountdown
Silver Member
Really? Wow I'd LOVE to do it, but would probably be best to leave it until things are a bit more settled and I can get in the right place to do it.
When my friend did my back for me it got really hot, it was amazing. xxxx
I'd LOVE to do it, but would probably be best to leave it until things are a bit more settled and I can get in the right place to do it.When my friend did my back for me it got really hot, it was amazing. xxxx
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