Ohh dear I'm sobbing my heart out! Watching the biggest loser and jillian getting talking to kristie had me in tears! It's exactly me and made me confront quite a few things I didn't expect. My dad leaving when I was 8 and having other children kristie saying people thinking she was weak was what my ex friend said about me people saying she's not good enough for her husband reminded me of my mother in law saying she didn't cone to my wedding because she thought marrying me was the biggest mistake my husband would ever make! God I'm crying again just typing this! Maybe this has made me confront why I use food I remember the day my dad left it was Xmas eve and when he went my mum gave me a tin of roses because I was crying and I ate them all maybe this thing with food has been going on that long! No more, I've had enough I am strong I will do this I will prove them all wrong I will be thin I will be happy and healthy and I will make my husband proud of me and give him the wife he deserves and the mother my children deserve no more slip ups enough now I'm not who I used to be and I will never be her again! Sorry it's so long I think I needed that!