Well weeks since i have been on here and went completely of the rails. hence i am back where i started and some!!!!! Life has been a bit **** and the diet or lack of it has went to pot. I am a bit disgusted with myself as all i have been doing is eating for the sake of it and not really enjoying it if i am honest x Nothing is fitting again and i feel horridly bloated.Why do we do this to ourselves?? Any way time to stop feeling sorry formyself and do something about it. I have commenced shakes today and not going to look at it as another restart but a new begining! Am just going to have another shake and have managed Nearly three litres of water and two coffees so far. Will try for another litre before bed. I have three mini goal dates before my final date in March which is my sisters wedding. Every other wedding i have been to i have lost a stone or two but still been the Big sister in every sense of the word. This time i would like to look as good as my other sisters, five of us alltogether. The bride being a size ten!!! First goal date to feel better is a tripaway for halloween with friends in just over nine weeks. Second for works Christmas night out seven weeks later. Third sisters hen do eight weeks after christmas. With a Fame theme you can see why i have extra incentive lol xx Leotards andleg warmers not a good look at a size 20 lol xx Then a wee final push for herwedding four weeks later. wouldlove to be at target by then.xxx Well positive thoughts to myself and everyone else on their own journeys xxx