Smelly Elle's fantastic diary: Weight Loss? What Weight Loss?

well i weighed this morning and it's undecided as to whether its 12st 11lbs or 12st 10lbs. Plus i'm bloated like a BALLOON this morning, in TOO much pain. guys i really think i look around 5 months pregnant, haha. Well, anyway, i blame the nuts and dried fruit. i really feel ill, my tummy & rest of digestive system are not taking this no dairy no oil thing well methinks. Anyway i shall weigh again on monday see if, once im feeling better and not so swollen, it can come down another 1lb. i will still have put on from the 12st 6lb WI last saturday but will have generally sts from the friday WI, which is the one that's counted on my tickers. that will be a relief if that can happen.

im off to get my last xmas present. while my stomach is cramping like crazy. this is STUPID. grrrr.

xxx
 
I hope you feel better soon Elle x
 
Bloating is horrible - you'll feel great when it goes x
 
hey everyone! and thanks :) well, my WI this morning had me at 12st 9lbs. Well, my first WI was 12st 7lbs and i was about to leap high in the air, but i tried it another 5 times and those 5 times all came out with 12st 9lbs lol. I think a lot of the 12st 12lbs was bloating and carbs, im hoping to keep my weight down over christmas now. possibly under 13stone.

in other news, my poor nan, she's in a nursing home having occupational therapy because she's broken her left arm and she's left handed. we're trying to get her out for christmas but we're not sure if the matron will let her :(

anyway peeps im chattered so i shall come back on tomorrow. should be a lot more conversation from me then, being at work n all ;)

xxx
 
good morning elle. so glad to hear your weigh in news. mine isn't so good. am dreading getting weighed tonight. am sure i'm going to have gained insane amounts of weight!!

am starting to feel rather sick of food already. ha. and have two christmas dinners, plus a scottish new year to get through yet. is there any hope? not really. sole sourcing through january for me until my birthday methinks...

abz xx
 
yay that's great news Elle! Abz, I'm sure your WI won't be too bad, good luck for it.

I hope they let your nan out for the day Elle
 
hey everyone!

Abz, you sound very negative! I totally know what you're saying, it's going to be difficult. But rule no.1 is to enjoy ourselves. My plan is to have a good listen to Paul McKenna on Christmas morning, see if that can't help me to stop shovelling every sodding thing I see into my mouth on Christmas day.

Also, dance whenever the opportunity arises! I plan on doing a lot of dancing, on christmas day and when i go out on boxing day.

Ooh, i just turned my head and my neck made a horrible crack sound - had a bit of a dizzy spell. Yuk, i hate when my neck cracks.

Anyway, Taz, thanks for the supportive words, I hope I can keep my weight down :) And I really hope my gran can come home for Christmas, it won't be the same without her..!

Well, i'm listening to Christmas songs, trying to get in the mood. But it's not working yet lol.

xxx
 
Yeah it makes me shudder!! Yukky yukky yuk.

Oh hey, I forgot to say earlier, lol. I didn't get much sleep last night, (that's point a) and point b is that my mum has a tendency to get very angry, very fast, and to constantly question my loyalty to her, i. e. "you'd do *thing* for anyone else but you won't do it for me!"

This morning as I was about to leave for work she asked me if I could go and change her bras for her to the back size up. Admittedly i did make a 'humph' kind of noise and say "do i have to?..and anyway, if you're going up a bra size you might need to go down a cup size, it's better if you try them on." to which she suddenly went crazy, "you never do anything for me bla bla" rant that she apparently enjoys so much. Having heard this argument a good few times in the last few days (including a version of it yesterday when she found out i was going to my cousin's house tomorrow to make mince pies with cranberries and she'd complained i always go to other people's houses to do stuff, i never stay at home and do it - she'd only complain about the fact that I was doing it in the first place!), being quite tired and a bit late anyway, and having had it UP TO HERE with her making me out to have something against her, I went absolutely mental at her and demanded she bring me her bras THIS INSTANT so i could "FRICKING WELL GO AND CHANGE THEM FOR YOU BECAUSE I'M SICK AND TIRED OF YOU MAKING OUT I NEVER DO ANYTHING FOR YOU" while proceeding to wake up the whole house ("oh my god, it's another mum!" - lol) Well, i'm not too happy with myself but she did kind of step back and go "no, it's ok, I should probably try them on anyway." And then i made a swift exit. I'm not angry whatsoever, it was just an annoying build up - just came out. Am i a really bad daughter? :S x
 
p.s. normally it would escalate in a very long winded shouty argument, but this time i went absolutely crazy so i think i shocked her a bit and she stopped shouting :S
 
You're not a bad daughter at all, it seems she expects rather a lot of you. I think sometimes some parents forget that when you become an adult you need to live your own life whether you live at home or elsewhere. Well done for shouting back, maybe you've been a little too submissive before x
 
I agree with Taz, you are defo not a bad daughter, I think that mums find it difficult sometimes to accept that the daughter is moving on with their lives.

The fact that you stood up to her is a good thing and hopefully we get her to take note. xx
 
not a bad daughter at all. sometimes mums need telling how it is the same as everyone else. i know my mum really pushes the limits on the things she asks me to do sometimes. i'm perfectly happy to help but then it goes 'and this, oh and this, and this' usually to do with sorting out her bills for her or doing something on her computer. and she doesn't let me finish one thing before demanding another and then she starts asking me to check and reply to her emails for her because she can't be bothered and this is after a 10 hour day at work, then i'm coming home and well, working, and eventually i go boom. well. went boom. this was last time she visited. hey mum, nice to see you, oh you've left your laptop in the car have you? that you want me to fix? but you can't be bothered to get it. you want me to get it? ok, oh, and your bags, and your coat, and the dog lead. and WHAT?? ha. i love helping her out if she's struggling. but when she's just asking because she can't be arsed then i tend to get riled up as i want to relax when i come home and she's visiting. not work for another four hours.

and i'm not feeling negative elle babes. not at all. i'm incredibly tired as i haven't really slept all weekend and discovered when i got to work that the cover that was supposed to be here until 6 isn't. now i would have gotten here at 7am in any case as i get a lift with OH but i would have chilled with a book for an hour rather than working an 11 hour day. i'm going to get it added as extra lieu but i'm SO tired...

abz xx
 
defo not a bad daughter, my mum still tries to hold my hand whilst crossing road!!!! I am 38 geez I don't think parents ever see us as adults and they love to do the guilt trip thing
 
Sounded like an epic argument! Pent up frustration over her acting like that over time...was the only way would ever come out was in one big ball of fury I guess.

Sure all will be fine soon!
 
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