Zafira
Gold Member
Awww Snow :hug99:....sorry to hear about your migraine/vomitting, must be awful 
Also about you feeling self-conscious and shameful.....i can SO relate to that ! x
Let me tell you something...a story about my history....it may be long too, but bear with me.
Right, when i was born back in 1966, my mum was 45, and i was an 11 lb baby!
The nurses in the hospital used me as a 'model' baby where i was so big to show other mums how to bath a baby apparently, and they nicknamed me 'buster'
which then changed to the nickname of Chubb !!
now the nickname Chubb, then stuck with me throughout my life, growing up etc, all my family including my mum & dad called me it, never or very rarely by my real name at the time which was Denise (It has since been changed by deedpoll when i re-married last year to Denn)
When i met my ex-husband back in 1983 , he and his family and other friends etc all started calling me it!!
Now, for years it was fine, never really thought much about it, until i started putting on weight!
THEN, it started to get embaressing!
Whenever i met anyone new, and was called by the name Chubb, i felt like i wanted to hide
I felt SO self-conscious and my confidence was low
Now my weight has been up and down over the years i would go up by 5 or 6 stone hten lose it, back up 3 or 4 st then lose it and so on....
When i lost weight in one of the years i went on holiday with my ex(before we were married and had had kids) and his brother and girlfriend and their 2 teenage nieces.....and i always remember one of the nieces saying...why do you call her 'Chubb' ? she isn't fat?!
Anyway years later when i was overweight at about 17st , went out with ex to a 'do' and he was introducing me etc , and calling me ''Chubb' and i felt SO SO embaressed and self-conscious!
I was imaginning people saying....i can see why he calls her Chubb!!
It got to the point years later(prob way too many years later )....that i finally said to my ex AND my Dad, PLEASE don't keep calling me Chubb, use my real name!
and explained all the reasons while being extremely upset and tearful!
It took a while but it finally changed!
I was in my late 30's by this time!!
And i had to suffer that ''nick-name for years!
Another thing recently....on FB , an old 'friend' (my ex's-sisters ex) called me chubb in a comment---that was soon deleted!!(before hopefully anyone else saw it!)
Then in a later comment, he replied using my name! (the post/s were about my SW achievements) - he obviously realised his mistake!
Anyway ......Just want you to know i know how you feel, and it is nothing to be ashamed of, you are DOING something about it---and that's the main thing!
Perhaps like me.....you could have a word with your sister , tell her how you feel , and even though she is proud of you can she not blurt it out to all her friedns and sundry!
Hopefully she will understand , like my lot did eventually :hug99:
Hope all that made sense
Also about you feeling self-conscious and shameful.....i can SO relate to that ! x
Let me tell you something...a story about my history....it may be long too, but bear with me.
Right, when i was born back in 1966, my mum was 45, and i was an 11 lb baby!
The nurses in the hospital used me as a 'model' baby where i was so big to show other mums how to bath a baby apparently, and they nicknamed me 'buster'
which then changed to the nickname of Chubb !!
now the nickname Chubb, then stuck with me throughout my life, growing up etc, all my family including my mum & dad called me it, never or very rarely by my real name at the time which was Denise (It has since been changed by deedpoll when i re-married last year to Denn)
When i met my ex-husband back in 1983 , he and his family and other friends etc all started calling me it!!
Now, for years it was fine, never really thought much about it, until i started putting on weight!
THEN, it started to get embaressing!
Whenever i met anyone new, and was called by the name Chubb, i felt like i wanted to hide
I felt SO self-conscious and my confidence was low
Now my weight has been up and down over the years i would go up by 5 or 6 stone hten lose it, back up 3 or 4 st then lose it and so on....
When i lost weight in one of the years i went on holiday with my ex(before we were married and had had kids) and his brother and girlfriend and their 2 teenage nieces.....and i always remember one of the nieces saying...why do you call her 'Chubb' ? she isn't fat?!
Anyway years later when i was overweight at about 17st , went out with ex to a 'do' and he was introducing me etc , and calling me ''Chubb' and i felt SO SO embaressed and self-conscious!
I was imaginning people saying....i can see why he calls her Chubb!!
It got to the point years later(prob way too many years later )....that i finally said to my ex AND my Dad, PLEASE don't keep calling me Chubb, use my real name!
and explained all the reasons while being extremely upset and tearful!
It took a while but it finally changed!
I was in my late 30's by this time!!
And i had to suffer that ''nick-name for years!
Another thing recently....on FB , an old 'friend' (my ex's-sisters ex) called me chubb in a comment---that was soon deleted!!(before hopefully anyone else saw it!)
Then in a later comment, he replied using my name! (the post/s were about my SW achievements
) - he obviously realised his mistake!Anyway ......Just want you to know i know how you feel, and it is nothing to be ashamed of, you are DOING something about it---and that's the main thing!
Perhaps like me.....you could have a word with your sister , tell her how you feel , and even though she is proud of you can she not blurt it out to all her friedns and sundry!
Hopefully she will understand , like my lot did eventually :hug99:
Hope all that made sense
