Thanks Summer
love the pep talks on here.
Am totally * week now so tomorrow WI is obvs ruined! Oh well *sigh* hopefully my mid week WI on thurs will be better. Just want to hurry up and see a loss already, y'know? Feels like forever since I updated my ticker/stats!
Today (and yesterday) I've been so exhausted and literally just spent all day on the sofa/bed on my gameboy/laptop watching tv. I'm feeling quite depressed too, actually, the shoots were really emotionally stressful and flying 8hrs back after one with just 3 hours sleep really f*cked me up quite a lot. I feel depressed in the way that I'm bored and feeling uninspired but want to do things... but physically can't! I'm so damn exhausted! It really was the stressiest shoot week I've ever experienced. They called me up this morning asking my to go to Bahrain on Tues for another shoot but I really can't face it so rejected it even though it's better paid because last min
dang. Oh well. Just need to get over this shoot and move on, but my energy levels are very, very low.
I'm really thinking (lol, still thinking) about joining the expensive gym across the road for a month. G said he'd pay for it (I really can't afford it) and he's very supportive, but I'm nervous I'll hate it and feel guilty for wasting loads of money. They have a big pool though and I recon at the very least I'll use that a lot! But the idea of being all wet and having to dry off might put me off- LOL I'm THAT lazy!? *****! But yeah, I think I'd be up for trying some of their classes too even though they don't have martial arts/boxing etc that I'm more interested in. But also the treadmill and such. Biggest Loser is inspiring me!
I really want to get back into writing and start a new novel too, but the whole blank page thing is so daunting it's scaring me off!
Jewellery shoot client from a couple of weeks ago has chosen 25 photos which means yay- decent commission for the edits! We didn't charge her for the shoot as she's a family friend, but we're charging per edit. She'd also like to do another shoot because she wasn't happy with how one of the outfits matched a necklace, which means potentially even more edits (but, argh, more shooting, just don't want to go near my camera for a while after last week lol)
This website has cheered me up though- full of quirky/awesome camera accessories/iphone cam bits etc and SO cute. OMG I want ALL OF IT! I told G to buy all my future birthday/xmas presents from there
but shipping is so bloody expensive
but anyway- have a look, so cute!
The Photojojo Store! Whenever I go on there I add about $400 of stuff to my cart then have to sadly close it to make sure I don't impulsively buy it all
Green today:
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B: Banana followed by diced potato and onions fried in olive oil (HexB1) with scrambled eggs. Not as nice as potato pancake, not sure why I just didn't make that
had ketchup (2) also.
L: Pasta 'n' sauce - Macaroni cheese. Thought these were more syns so padded it out with extra pasta and used one between the two of us! But it's only 1 syn, lol, knob. Cooked carrots and courgette in with it and had 1/4 hexA of milk and 1/2 hexA cheese.
D: Plain oats so simple porridge (HexB2) with 1/2 HexA2 milk (180ml) and golden syrup (1)
Snacks: activia 0%, apple
Drinks: Lilt zero x2, squash, green tea
Syns: 3
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Think I've done pretty well on the minimal syns front this weekend to make up for the extra ones while away (especially since my * week tendencies are very chocolate desiring this week!), will draw the line here though and start tomorrow as a fresh new week.
As for food while away, won't be able to list everything for the last two days but did have lots of Alpen Light's throughout the trip- probably about 4 a day but had porridge for breakfast too so means I had about 3 HexB's. I recon the day I flew back ended up pretty much a green day apart from the 50g of beef jerky I had on the flight (which would have been 3 syns in total on EE/Red but is 7 syns if green, which is a bit annoying) so would have been allowed most of those hexB's! Had a pasta dish on the flight, though also had a sandwich that they brought around before we landed- I didn't want to have it but was REALLY hungry! It was a weird sort of closed hot sandwich- looked like a pasty but was doughy-er. Probably loads of syns for that sort of bread and it had a chicken mayo sort of centre which goes against green too, grr. Oh well. Anyway- considering my breakfast was syn free (instant porridge with a banana chopped in) and I didn't go for a pre-flight meal like the girls did at the airport- think I wasn't too bad! And usually I stuff myself with chocolates/crisps on flights, but the beef jerky kept me pretty content really
got home and nearly had pasta but ended up just having yoghurt and fruit - woop! I also drank about 3 green teas, two diet pepsi's and about 6 small cups of water throughout the flight- attempted to keep drinking as much as possible but the flight was packed unlike the empty one on the way there, so didn't have the air hostesses coming by with as many drinks.
The day before was a bit funny- we had the afternoon off, needed to head to shoot at 5pm but had been woken up around 12 (so really didn't get enough sleep which made things worse later) even got some pool time in and a light tan- ha! I ate two apples that were free at the pool (and stocked up on them in my bag- lol! They said take as many as I want and they were really nice dark red shiny ones- had two on the flight and one at the air port too!) We went for a quick lunch at a typical arabic sort of cafe. I ordered mixed grill meat skewers- figured 'grilled' was a decent bet, but it was pretty greasy considering. I also had these flatbread things- a bit like wraps but an amazing texture! So doughy and just awesome! And the humous was really good too. Ate probably equivalent to half a tub of it :| also the meal came with loads of chips! BUT GUESS WHAT!? I quickly dished them out to the girls and didn't eat even one!!
feel awesome about that! I did have this sort of healthy pizza esque thing- not really pizza though, it was a hardish sort of bread, very thin, with almost a salsa like stuff on it- finely diced tomato, onion, herbs, so wasn't really that unhealthy. I was pretty full after though but was REALLY glad later- the girls were famished on the shoot and I wasn't! We didn't have time to eat (we weren't given food until 3am and then we just didn't have time to sit and eat it as the wedding stuff was very busy at that point) so I was grateful I'd eaten well- the girls had halloumi wraps for lunch and it didn't keep them going like my food did me!
However, I went a bit insane after we wrapped at about 5am when we'd packed up and were about to leave- I was so tired and feeling kinda hysterical and just started eating all this chocolate and stuff that was left on the tables that weren't cleared yet :S I didn't eat much really but I just remember popping loads of things I didn't even want in my mouth just to calm myself down or something. I tried like 4 different chocolate things, one was a chocolate coated almond, another a bit like a fererro rocher and another rectangular chocolate with caramel in it, then I had a shot glass sized mushy desert thing and a couple of canipe's (they were bready but kinda ate inside the bread for the most part apart from a bite or two)- I also had a few canipe's through the night, a falafel one, a pizza like one and a couple of others I can't remember, but they were basically dinner so I don't feel too guilty. But yeah- the chocolates thing was a bit weird, I think I was in a really weird place and just didn't care anymore but needed something to boost my moral- didn't even enjoy them!
So yeah, that kinda covers what I ate while away! Just wanted to get it down to sort of review it all and actually think it was pretty decent choices. Obvs over the usual syns but hopefully this past couple of very low days will help that! Does give me hope for the Florida trip this summer. Though today on Biggest Loser they were showing a 'typical' salad in america at a restaurant being like 900cal! And on another ep they said the huge ceasar salad was like 1500!?!?!? FFS. But I guess I'll just be very finicky with my orders "this on the side, none of this, grilled- no oil, etc" as I just... really don't want to screw up and put on a stone like I easily could :S to be honest- I LOVED that humous and bread stuff, but for the most part I don't remember food from holidays, so it's just not worth the pain later! I'll have loads of junk out there but just... if I can keep two meals safe-ish ones a day, would be good!
Long post, soz guys
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