Tdai is day 17, tis so early in the mrning bt im alredy planning my days packs lol...i find tht if i work out the cals etc regarding the veg fr the day then im mre determined to stick it out...n the onli thing i do change round if i do is the veg...not going to measure maself til end of nx week wich wil be end of week three...its funi coz wen i try on joggers or home clothes/casual then i do feel tiny bit smaller n me cuzin has told me tht my frame does nt seem as broad as it used to be like my shoulders n face n tht, ( dno if thts js her being nyc n tryin to keep me going or what) lolz...bt wil tke it on board bt the thing is wen i try on jeans and dresses tht r the small ones they still dnt go up and my curent jeans n legging feel exacrly the sme n not loose at all...so thhts tad demotivating the same as to wen others dnt comment on the fact if ur lukin smaller or not... My sister n cuzin told me tht the other cuzin ( the stupid one) was sniffin round n asking them two whether jm on a specific diet or nt n bth of them bless them told her im js watchin wt i eat n cut down on outside food nt abt the vlcd n the stupid ***** kept askin them r they sure tht im nt on a specific diet...i mean she asked me too if im on one n i js told her tht its nt goin very well cz iv eaten things with carbs in js to throw her off....she such a nosy git reli annnoys me espec wen done behind my back....
the onli reason as to y i dnt wna tel no one abt this is js in case a) the results dnt happen in time and b) js incase i end. Up blowin up like did this yr gone, though tht is nt in my future plans, cz al tht wil then do is get the ppl hu did know abt it if theres too many of them, critisizing the vlcd sayin tht theh knew i wud put it al bk on wen eating again bt tis my body n as sed earlier on in the diary the risk of puttin weight bk on is on evry type of diet n its hp to the person as to hw to keep weight frm comig bk on....nt sayin its essy cz its nt as iv maintaind bt onli for so long coz life n comfort tends to get in the way or sum other reason....
Tdai plannin on having cheesy pasta with broccoli Chillli Two shakes in the end
Or Chilli n spag bol as got loads of them n need to try n cut down on them slowly lol...oxo cube to add bit flavour n chillli powder as the spag bol is lot blannder then i thrt lol...with yogurt Cheesy pasta and a shake at the end of it
and the veg gna consist of mushrooms and broccoli and cauliflower n mayb a few brussels if the 200g allows it n see wt the cals say with them lol xx goin to do half lol 100g with the first two packs n the other 100g or 50g with the cheesy pasta...goin to slowly strt cuttin dwn on the veg too n see if tht mkes ne diff to the four packs n weight loss....iv js realised been two weeeks tht iv nt had chicken or fish..nt confident nuf to xperiment with them in a healtthy way or hw to mke them tasty lol thts y putting them off for nw lol... Have bort two wrkout dvds one is called cardiodance workout by sum one called camilla and the other one is muffin top wrkout bth r areobic type dvds n can b slit as its in sections...thinkin of strtin them tdai too as thinkin tht they may with tonin n inch loss wt u lot think? Pr dp u think it wud preven tme frm losig on scales n inch loss? Scared coz dnt wna try sumat diff tht mite slow down losses as they r slow nuf as it is lol bt then again the inches r slow too so thort mite b able to push them along bit with bit of short workout...ne suggestions? Sooo js wna see the tens on the scales nw lol and shrink too or is tht js me being impatient like alwys loll its coz the walking doesnt alwys appen u see coz of the rubbish weather n cnt afford gym rite nw...so thrt buy two dvdds instead n they were a quid each so thrt y nt...reli wnted a zumba dvd bt they aint cheap lol...
Iv decided regardin work tht i wil wait til end of the month to tke on work as got graduation this upcumin thursday and a hospital appointment upcuming friday and goin out the fri after too n the last thing wnt is to be called into new job if by chance i do get one n having to say cnt come for wteva reason n also i reli reli do need a nite out as nt had a proper one since like the summer time coz once it strted getin cold sept/oct time onli went out once or twice for a quick drink nt a proper nite out so the mole on me face going to be cumin off hpefully nx fri yaay js in time for wen im going out week after and also hpefully by then will have shrunk abit...im soo paranoid its unreal think its more so coz my friends cuzin n sister r all slim nva been big so they dnt kno hw it feels. But me, i have lost so know the diff as to hw i feel wen im small and big...cz hve expriencd both....and iv been told im a stroppy upset paranoid individual wen im out tho i dnt notice it maself...lol n alwys apologise at the end of the nite i think its to do with my self esteeem even wen was small nevr believed i was reli small and sumtimes get hurt wen others get attention n i dnt..lol im alwys the girl hu gets approached to b asked abt my friends lmaoo nt me haha...oviously i dnt reli mind cz mst dudes r dopes nehuu wen out n abt bt dno it can hurt a ttimes n the ones i do talk to ummm dnt alwys do it for me n ex was a twat hu brought me down loads...n nw has forgotton me as doe i never existed in the first plce....the nerve of him....
Bt yh it has effected me in a huge way and all my friends n fam r prettier then me nehuu so gues wen do go out it does sumtimes hit a nerve in a small way bt im bubbly with evry one regardless whether its them js being friendly or wteva...i do need to try n wrk on tht..
.clins programme sounds reli interesting....hmmm nehuu sori for the story peepz lol....tis freezin tdai gta go n buy a kitten bundle off sum one one for 20 quid...iv decidd if i dnt get a kitren by end of feb time wher hpefuly b wrkkng wil js sell the bundle off for a cheap price bt thrt mite as well buy it nw cz found it for cheap and also if did endup with a kitten will b able to not have to rush round ttyin to buy al the bits cz wil alredy have a bit lol xx