More food!
A bowl of raspberries & onken fat free yogurt. Coffee with 3 mikado (
1.5syns). Brings me to 9.0syns. Getting caught up on Supersize Vs Superskinny. Can't quite believe how much the big guy eats. Although, some of it looked rather nice- at least he eats some veggies unlike the skinny dude- who is currently waaay too high and mighty!
I watch this stuff and think back to before the weight loss, before SW. I still don't know why I ate the ***** I did. Mostly, for me, it was habit and convenience. I have always been big, I can remember being 11st in 5th Year (Year11 in UK & 12 in NI
Zoe), I was always overweight. It was, my parents fault, I was never denied anything. I was allowed to eat and drink whatever **** I wanted. Before mum died, we (my sisters and I) were chubby, but not fat. After mum died, Dad didn't want to "make our lives sadder" so we had unlimited access to sugarly crap. I swear, I was connected to the fridge door by an elastic band! Then, when I moved into my own place, and when my husband moved in, I lived on greasy crap and having a chinese at the top of the road did NOT help, neither did all the trips to the nice restaurants. When I did teacher training, that's when I ballooned. All the stress and not cooking (and kebabs and pizza takeaways delivered when G got home from work at 2am)... I really got bigger.
I'm still not 100% sure where the determination to lose this weight came from. I am rationalising when I work backwards. But I am so glad I found SW. I never thought I could be the skinny sister (always belonged to my littlest sister who was sporty and naturally skinnier) or the fitter one. But i am. And it's thanks to SW.
The year 11s in my school have asked to do a "before and after" for their year book as I have lost all the weight when they were there. I have provisionally agreed, LOL.
I guess this is a random, meandering post summing up my thoughts of my sw journey. I think it's cause it makes me sad, that I can't get any more awards... or something at group. I really wish they did a "months at target" award or something, just to give target members something to keep motivated.
Meh! I don't know where this is going and I'm now just rambling. Sorry!