Hugs Sunshine. I understand the feeling of being so near and yet so far, over last 3 months have hovered at 2lbs above original goal weight (with occasional moments below, but mostly above) and ultimate goal is 10st 7 and that seems a long way off. I do so well for a while then something happens and I relax or lose focus and the scales don't seem to take me to where I want to be. I think like you, my body is fed up with restrictions and fed up with the ultra control.
I am aware of that, and its one reason I want to get to the 'new' goal so I can focus on maintaining once & for all. Determination comes and goes, but today it is strong and I am hopeful. I am following 1200, not the CD step, but cals, and opt for more protein and less carbs if I can as that suits me better. It does work, and the weight is slowly dropping.
If you choose to do 810, that's OK... Lelly did this recently, so worth checking with her? A couple of weeks would get you past goal, easily, and then 1000 for Florida, and up the steps slowly to maintain. The important thing is not to panic, because you have done so well and inspired so many of us. It's natural, though, to have low moments and fed up moments and panic moments, all of us do.
Wonder too if it's worth mailing KD for advice?
Sunshine, I don't think you are lost at all, just a bit overwhelmed, so much has been going on and you've coped with it amazingly... but when you get a breathing space, that's when things hit you. If you are anything like me, you like that feeling of being in control, and find it hard to step outside that comfort zone! You are going to be a beautiful bride hun, and all of those dreams are going to happen... relax and trust yourself, because you CAN do it.
xxx